Happy Birthday Zen from me @ExodamArtworks @CreationsNins and @Rayterni we each used our own styles to bring this party of friends and geckos to life to show how much you mean to us all! Thank you for helping me find these amazing new friends and people I will cherish❤️

I wonder if I'm failing

Next week we try for 5 days a week outside of weekends!! 😤✊️ gambaaaaa

Other than that been to the gym 4x this week outside of having team meetings for the rivals tournament

Week 3,4,5 ahahahha

So I basically skipped almost 2 weeks because of the new season of Apex, but for one of the weeks the snowstorm hit so hard I was basically working out shoveling for at least 4 days (cope) that's basically a workout right?

I didn't know them so it didnt feel right to write something on her post, but they had an amazing impact on so many people in this space, I hope she rests well and her family can see all the amazing messages everyone has left her

Bluesky I do tend to yap and air out thoughts a bit more so hehe hello welcome

Bro I don't understand social media algorithm 😭 it's been so random recently

skeb.jp/@sisima_

I can't wait till I can commission artists for pieces like this again!

But I'm hyped for hopefully what can be a very strong and kinda-balanced weapon meta!

MAN

As a creator it SUCKS when leakers exist and post things that you work all day to make and organize 🥲

Like I understand its how they get their following but I worked hard to film and edit and abide by my contracts

as a "proper vtuber" or however you might phrase it.

I am happy to see people being less strict with themselves and constantly raising the ceiling for what vtubing can achieve. But all I'm saying is, if you have the dreams of becoming an idol still, you can.

That's the beauty of being a vtuber

in the vtuber sphere at the time (hololive, nijisanji etc.) so I was just so fortunate enough to fall in love with a game (Apex Legends) and grow from there.

Again, I'm super happy to have grown the way I did because it allowed me to do what I want to without any guidelines on how to "act"...(4/5)

towards an idol debut and enjoy the "traditional" experience, outfit debuts, song releases, concerts, idol outfits, etc.

But I've been kinda informal because I had to start as an indie. I felt like I couldn't do and proper debut because I lacked funding, and lacked presence..(3/5)

are able to use vtubing as just purely as a form of self expression and creative outlet.

At the end of the day, vtubing is a medium, so do what you want with it, it's silly to gatekeep but I also think it's silly to criticize what others choose to do.

For me, I still want to move...(2/5)

The discourse on whether if its a good idea for vtubers to deviate from idol culture is honestly understandable from both sides, I'm still on the side that the idol culture side of it all still makes alot of sense and happy that people are still perusing it. But also happy that other creators..(1/5)

Bro the people that put food shows and commercials in gym deserve a special place 😮‍💨

So as a result I end up becoming too formal + polite and I feel like that just becomes a barrier I create between me and other people

Sometimes I wonder if my inability to make close friends with people have just stunted my growth online

I think i'm just not very good at making friends; its not any like condition, but I guess I've been really bad at reading people unless they tell me their boundaries.

Week 2!

I think my stamina is getting better, my legs still burn though x u x / I went cycling today (indoors) and my legs felt like bricks after getting off of the bike.

Still going strong!

Thank you to all the extroverts that end up adopting an introvert like me 🥲

I'll try and do weekly updates here so it doesn't become too crowded 💙

Day 3 is usually hurdle day and when my brain tells me doing the same things is boring waaa so doing the same workout but we pushed through!

Tomorrow might be an active rest day~

Day 1 and 2 I mostly tried to ease myself into moving my body, did low impact exercises but still incorporated strength training!

Can only use 7.5 and 10lb dumbells rn but I'm happy with that for the next two weeks or so.

Hopefully moving over to 15lbs weights next month!

Gym accountability thread! Bear is working hard to be healthy and move my body more so we can feel good and look good by summer!

Just want to get myself in a better shape so I can balance my lifestyle a bit better ✊️

Ahhhhhhhh I will peel away from rivals but I wanna hit GM soon! It's just been fun

Finally settled in my temporary home! Then will be moving again end April/Early May, I love where I'm living now, but stream times will be affected;

I'm return I want to do my best and growing my other platforms

Made it to the new place in one piece, might have to go back and do some tidying up but for now, rest and dinner.

Final bits of energy will be unloading and showering 🥲

I didn't sleep or eat so super weak rn