Finally grabbed and started Hades II.

Gentle strength can sometimes be the hottest fucking thing.

The romantic loneliness does hit hard. I just don't feel particularly close to anyone these days.

8 Ball YouTube video by Underworld - Topic

No, YOU scrubbed through nearly 600 songs in a 1600 song playlist to find the one you heard while vibing in the bathhouse hot tub. www.youtube.com/watch?v=N5XY...

This is what happens when I don't shoot into a rag or something

Actually, I'm cancelling/postponing this for now. I'm worried about my back pain and gas costs. I'd still like to get out of town to avoid the NF*L dr*aft that's happening here, but somewhere closer and less likely to involve a lot of walking. Don't know where tho.

I hereby submit documentation for continued proof of existence renewal.

I normally wouldn't do this, but desperate times call for desperate measures. As many of you know my mom was recently diagnosed with cancer stage 4. She is currently undergoing chemotherapy but having some side effects. We are hoping to get back to spend time with her and help out where we can.

... or someone else's.

Thanks! I'll let ya know.

So I'm planning on visiting New York next weekend. Do I know anyone there that would like to meet up? Or anyone in any nearby cities who would like a visit for a night en route to or from?

Thanks, I appreciate it! I've got good people in my life and have a lot of good social things going for me, they're just very disconnected from any kind of romantic or sexual realm. But I'm grateful for those at least.

Yeah, pretty much. You can do ok if you're like, standard issue, commonly-accepted-as-attractive bear elsewhere, but if you've got any jagged edges, it's a major uphill battle to find your people within the bear demographic. And your best chance is in a major city.

I'm more frustrated with the state of things than I am beating myself up, thankfully. I've never had it in me to try to force connections that aren't organic. If someone isn't interested, I don't have an interest in pushing. I find my tribes, but they're typically outside my dating pool.

Thanks!

Sorry to hear that.

Thanks! I appreciate the kind words.

I mean, I deal with my fair share of self-loathing and low self esteem and beating up on myself, but I also have a decent sense of self and mostly like who I am even if I sometimes very much don't. It's just hard to forge your own path in this world.

Drop some BATHTUBS. (sorry.)

I kind of really hate being gay. It's not even about oppression or societal shame or any of that shit. I'm just not compatible with my dating pool at all and I'm always trying to fit the wrong shape peg into the wrong shaped holes trying to find my people in most gay spaces.

I'm not sure what the term is for a jumpscare that's for lust instead of fear, but that's just what happened when I switched to this tab and saw this. Wooooof.

I don't know what it is that makes it especially hard to find other bears/big guys to hook up with. The interest I get locally is definitely heavily tilted towards people on the smaller side of the spectrum, and while I enjoy encounters with a variety of people, I really want more big people.

Goddamnnnnn.

Lucky me, I ran into @funinpgh.bsky.social at the bathhouse last night and he bred me in the sling. Eventually we're gonna find some time to record again. Even better if other locals wanted to join...

Exactly. Ain't no one gonna break your stance when you're running around blocking with a chunk of highway.

But for real, there's some cool ass shields in Elden Ring.

Look. All you have to do is get through dozens of hours of content and grinding and you will get a fucking SHIELD.

It just objectively is.

Sure could use a fat daddy to force me down onto his dick until he floods my throat right about now.

Had such a nice time with @puppyscruffles.bsky.social that when I shot, I managed to give myself a massive facial.

God, I would absolutely feast.

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