"You know, I met your father once." Okay, in hindsight, Shane could have phrased that better, or led with something gentler. Ilya went still, then jerked away from him--it didn't help that he'd been half-asleep, going heavier and more limp against Shane. Ilya's curls were flattened on one side. His necklace was askew, the cross resting in the hollow above his collarbone. He stared at Shane with a look Shane didn't think he'd ever quite seen. Hunted, hurt, almost angry. "What?" "Sorry," Shane said automatically. His own lassitude vanished, evaporated like morning fog in a summer day's rising heat. He sat up from his slouch. His side and shoulder felt too cold, missing Ilya's warm weight.

I have a migraine but it's #wipwednesday, so here's some #Hollanov #HeatedRivalry fic in which I headcanon all over the place.

A selection of people at this library:

- group of young uni students trying to write a presentation, I keep hearing "Du nervst gerade voll"

- 2 men, both with loud voices, sniping at each other over... food?

My noise-canceling headphones are struggling. 😆 (I'm more entertained than annoyed!)

And I filled out the "Epworth Sleepiness Scale" today. It was a bit sobering, but also, the words 'sleepiness scale' were so funny to me that I had to choke back giggles in the waiting room.

(Hallelujah, the caffeine is kicking in & the floor looks less appealing now. :D)

(Note to self to post a really specific gif/screencap from Apollo 13 (1995) tonight when I put on the testing apparatus.)

(I VERY much hope I don't have sleep apnea. I do not want to have to learn to sleep with a CPAP device. Yes, I'm looking for physical stuff that could explain my fatigue, but please, not this one. xD)

I'm at the library & it's actually pretty funny that I am tired on the day I picked up the device to test if I've got sleep apnea. I'm fairly sure if I laid down on the floor here, I would fall asleep, germs and noise be damned. 😅

*chugs coffee*

2 teenage girls and I just helped an older, extremely well dressed woman find her correct train. She was so nice, the girls were great, I feel like we cracked a glow stick of happiness, haha. 😂💖

fyi, if you are my friend & you talk about Apollo 13 behind my back, I will never forgive, nor forget. (Joking!)

But fr, is there a word for that genuinely bereft feeling when you realize your special interest was mentioned & you came online too late to chime in? xD

Whoaaa, that's so much writing!! Congratulations! :D <3

One for sorrow, two for joy. Three for girl and four for boy. Five for silver, six for gold. And seven for a secret that's never told. 🎶

Now I want to work on my long pre-canon Dishonored fic again. 😅

I saw literally four magpies at once just now!! Two were hopping across the street & then flying off, two were perched on the street lamp right next to them. So I guess, according to the song, my hypothetical child in an alternate universe is a boy!

Omg, being around casual fans of the thing you're obsessed with is such a challenge 😂😂💖

Hahaha I'd be down for a cruise on "Butt" 😂😂😂

"Wie lange kann man Zähne allein lassen, bis sie anfangen, komische Sachen zu machen?" #TheFlatshareWithoutContext

Ohhh YAY! It is so pretty!!

Why is it that I am much slower at writing comfort than hurt? I am so deeply slutty for comfort, to the depths of my soul, that you'd think I'd blast through it within an hour and it'd be the easiest part. But instead, all the hurt was super fast and smooth. 🤨

Today I googled wtf Tums are, and what they're for/ which flavors they come in, for fanfic-writing! (They're antacid medicine to treat mostly heartburn.)

Oh nooo, haha! I sat in a reclining theater chair for the first time a few weeks ago. It was magical, haha, the most relaxed I've ever been while watching a horror movie (Iron Lung). :D

Shane grimaced. Ilya couldn't see it, but he felt it against his neck. "'s not jus' about sex," he said. "'s all the other stuff. Ilya. Hey. Ilya." Shane's nose was suddenly only an inch away from Ilya's. He held Ilya's face between sweaty palms. He was going cross-eyed from trying to make eye contact this close. Perhaps he was trying for a tender moment, but he was squeezing a bit too hard to be entirely comfortable. Ilya's cheeks were squished towards his mouth. "Yeah?" he managed. "I like..." A long pause. "You. Not jus' the sex." "Good to know," Ilya said as best he could.

It's #wipwednesday and I will accost y'all with more #Hollanov because I can. #HeatedRivalry
This WIP is a bit more light-hearted, haha, based on a Tumblr post. I also really wanted to write drunk Shane. :D

A comic of the Tom & Jerry custard meme. Panel 1: Tom looks grumpily at a sheet of paper. Panel 2: The paper reads "Me, making a throwaway comment about RWRB Henry" Panel 3: Tom looks up from the paper, looking excitedly to the right Panel 4: Tom is hit in the face with a plate of custard. "My gf hitting me with the juiciest, angstiest fic idea"

I'm not complaining at all, this is amazing. I will plumb the depths of ao3 about this. I love your brain so much @plutodetective.bsky.social !!! 🥰✨

oh this is so good!!! <3 <3

The main parachutes slowed Integrity down to just 19 mph. Wow!

Oh nooo, I'm emotional 🥹💗 THANK YOU for the excellent coverage and especially the time zone conversions in your tracker!!! Absolutely invaluable! See you for Artemis III! <3

Also LOL, when Reid Wiseman (I think?) reported "four green crew members" just post-splashdown, the commentator was like, "That is not their complexion, it's their status." :D Coulda fooled me because Integrity was visibly bobbing up and down in the waves. I... could never be an astronaut. xD

Watching back the coverage now. I think my heart stopped from the time the main chutes were deployed, to the moment they finally opened, haha. <3
And you could SEE the capsule sway once the parachutes were out! Astronauts need strong stomachs, haha!

I read somewhere that the ISS astronauts could actually see some of Integrity's re-entry fireball. I... don't even know how to find words for how cool that is. Amaze, amaze, amaze!!

Splashdown was a full success and the crew are safe! <3 (First thing I checked after prying my eyes open this morning haha.)

Aww!!! It was such a relaxing re-entry time!!! 🥰❤️💗🫂 Sending you BIG re-entry hugs, my love! 💖🚀

a laundromat with a sign that says do not throw clothes on the floor Alt: a laundromat with a sign that says do not throw clothes on the floor

The "does laundry but like in a punk way" gif, but with re-entry. (Also, my boysss ;_;)

I made my re-entry lunch a little too spicy, oof. (Anything I do today will be re-entry-themed. I've got a re-entry date in 45min. I did some re-entry writing already. I changed my sheets but like, in a re-entry way. You get the idea. :D) (But my lunch is still delicious!)