What's ironic about this though, is that I have seen people who are really into pop music have that classified as a special interest.

However, I think it's more likely to be described that way because it's more characteristic of women or LGBT folks to be super into it.

Oh I mean, there's definitely ASPECTS to me that line up, having had those conversations. But then there's also quite a few things that don't either.

It's just so hard to tell what parts of it have to do with how I was raised, rather than something intrinsic in my DNA, you know?

Am I crazy, or is the way we navigate the whole concept of "special interests" bullshit?

Like you never see normative cis-hets who obsess over sports have that called their "special interest" in a demeaning way.

Like maybe people just have a favorite hobby??

Like there's things about me, where I have no idea if it's just because of how my parents raised me or not.

Like for example, I absorb weird shit like Billboard chart data--Because my parents also had me do math problems for "fun" as a child, so it conditioned my brain to be very numbers-focused.

So for those who don't know me, my parents have autism.

However, I was never tested or diagnosed as a child.

Whenever I take tests today, I always score moderately low, and I have no idea if it's because I unlearned/mask things, or just had to unlearn habits I picked up from how I was raised.

Wait I've never even heard someone claim that's autistic before. What lol. But agreed, some of the stuff I'm seeing on this one test I took was kind of goofy like that

Does anyone else think the questions they ask on autism tests are goofy as fuck sometimes?

Like "I can talk about my interests for hours and hours." I mean should we not be talking about things that interest us? You mean for hours and I'm INFODUMPING or it's a 2-way convo? And can =/= will

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Yeah, and it's time you start competing, so :3c

That's fair! I mean, I guess with Michelle, she is at least a performer. I feel like non drag judges on Drag Race work better, because there's a bunch of separate skills that go into being good at the show. Whereas dance comps are a bit more specific.

Also, if I ever rap about how I'm the greatest/I have no competition, etc. I hope it's plenty obvious I'm just playing into a character and don't actually mean it. Lmao okay thank u

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Semi-regular reminder that just because I judge dance comps/give feedback, doesn't mean I think I'm an amazing dancer--I just know some things, and am relatively okay at articulating my thoughts.

I am aware I am mid on the grand totem pole of things.
But hey, doesn't mean I can't still be helpful.

Well I'm glad you're doing better now for sure <3

I mean the dollar menu was fully a thing in Columbus in 2017. I could sustain a whole day's worth of calories off four dollars (even if it wasn't the healthiest choice, lmao)

I wish I could run a poll on here, but whatever:

Either like this post, or reply if you've ever felt like you'd never stop being haunted by something unfortunate you did, no matter how much distance you put behind it.

Why?
Because I think it's important to show we all fuck up and you're not alone.

I mean I was posting this because of the calorie count, but I feel you (although I guess you could argue that's a dollar a nug)

I don't know if I've had vegan pizza (Possibly?) But I always fuck with veggie pizza, so I'd definitely be down to try the vegan option some time o/`

To be clear, not communicating anything to me doesn't = you can't articulate it; no one is obligated to tell me why they don't like me.

I only mean in an instance where someone is literally being asked (whether by me or someone else) and they quite literally can't give a real reason.

Thank you. It's unfortunate that some people just presume I'm not someone who gives a shit about doing better, but honestly:

If you can't even tell me what I need to be doing better at this point, then maybe I could stand to worry a little less.

New, from McDonalds: Certain and Absolute Death!

You know, if it's gotten to the point where someone can't even articulate why they don't like me, then perhaps I'm doing better than I thought.

✨

My therapist tells me a lot that I probably need to stop holding things against myself that happened literally last decade.

It's probable I should start listening to her.

I'm not even aware of anyone trying to lead a cancel campaign against you, let alone several times! Like no one's ever said anything bad about you as far as I'm aware.

I think sometimes that is why I'm okay with like, not trying to be on Drag Race for example. I feel like even that level of noteriety would be too much to handle.

In furry, I feel like I'm just roleplaying as someone who matters, and that's honestly chill with me. Lmao

Now sure, that doesn't mean they deserve a platform again if they do improve.

But I think there is something to be said for people who genuinely work on themselves, who can also be an inspiration for others to improve as well.

I'll always try to keep an open mind, as long as people are trying.

I think sometimes we forget that when it comes to cancelling people, they don't just stop existing after the fact.

Unless someone has done something truly horrible that cannot be reformed, it is to the benefit of the greater good to want those people to improve, for the sake of others around them.

Pffft, it honestly doesn't feel that way from my perspective. 😆 The only time I feel bombarded is after performing, which is totally understandable. I'm honestly always happy to have people come up to me and rarely ever feel overwhelmed by it. :3

I know some people probably see me as the Big Scary Drag Queen (which I mean, probably stops me from getting genuinely weird orbiters, lmao), but I honestly do my best to be nice.

Even if our vibes don't align, I'll always make a point to be neutral and kind, as long as you're not an awful person.

I certainly try to be! I guess we can't control how people interpret things, but I always want to do my best to come across well and treat people decently.