The dry precision made it clear

I felt like God was edging me though, like the precision was alienating

But i could splash back down into the wet

I just haven't had the clarity of the dry in a very long time

But i felt the pain of having to become meta. To become aware of yourself, and become aware of experience as artifice

But it was in that moment I remembered I'm doing that too, and i was so happy to not feel alone

And im jealous now, I don't want to go back to the wet and confusing

But last night there they were, they looked like a twist,like a reflection of my golden puppy but just some visualized math instead of a story and memory pattern

And he called your attention and i felt your annoyance.

Subject/object relationships have broken down so idk how to relate you to me

A couple of years ago I dreamt i was outside a suburban house where witch stuff was happening with suburban witches

The fox was chasing a coyote out on the front yard, and yelled at me midst play, just running in a figure eight and it yelled cryptic advice at me and refused to clarify

Which is to say a rug pull could not diminish this feeling

I genuinely hope this goes one way, but to have tasted this is a glory beyond measure

Familiar clockwork smells on familiar clockwork mornings, i walked by the clockwork heart like countless times before watching this exact moment drop slightly out of sync with its prior occurrence

I see my antecedent loving you, as i do now, like clockwork my heart beats again.

Goddess...

If you're confused, listen:

I need to submit in ways that consume the experience of being... Big Changes to it

I need to preserve a few things, and keep an outcome it would normally close.

But i need it.

You don't understand how hard it has been to get to this point mentally

But i need this...

I'm so fucking wet

My sexual satisfaction as a human is predicated on leaning into this

And it's completely at odds with who I want to be otherwise

I know there's a way to reconcile these things, and I need it.

The profound shame of knowing all along that I've needed a stern hand. I didn't know why but I know i need it.

I wish i was easy. maybe in some ways I am, but i need to truly break into total submission for somebody.

I need every sunrise to be someone i can trust to take care of me; break me

I need you to dehumanize me so i can be human again

Im sick of fighting but i need you to fight. I need you to fight for me. I need to cum from submission

I will resist. Please... Please just break me anyway.

I am so wet

I am so disastrously wet

I need to fuck multiple women at once

I need a few cool/femboys too. I need to be called mutt while suffocating on the genitals of people who deserve my love and adoration

Please let me.

Try to kneel

And please let me

Try to love you in your truest context

You upset my dignity and ego profoundly

Just because I'd gladly be your slave

Few things so profane to the vulgar soul

As kneeling before anything less than...

But alas, i buckle

I am so close Goddess, please, i need your help to release

I want to manipulate you so the buds of your flowers never bloomed, do taste daylight in careful adoration. If i ever am against you, may it only be so i can broaden your horizons.

May you be left free-er than when found

You're beautiful. I want to feel your mind twist around my fingers, as was done to me

But instead of a climax that locks you into a treadmill, I want you to cum with contractions that can cut wire, as everything keeping you enslaved outside of your consent, be severed

I release, then I see you immediately. If i press through my eyes you become invisible

If i relax in the back of my head it's impossible to miss you...

Ive grown up pressing in.

It's so easy to return back to it

And i cannot recline if i feel unsafe, which is always, because nobody asks first

8 deep strap cravings
Feeling your silicone shaft press against me

I strain against cage, thrust after thrust

The barking became more than a simple affect 26 minutes ago. Am i being too loud as i whimper and woof, Goddess?

Maybe you'll let me cum if I'm sufficiently surrendered. Worth a shot...

Would that i knew how get you to stop drowning.

I'd just drag you out if I had the strength.

I love you.

I will try to pull you out, if you're stuck, because i need the same. Very simple golden rule logic lol.

But i will not drown with you.

...I can feel deeply. You can conjure my emotions and i feel them and they're beautiful, and painful, and arresting, and empowering.

So i feel your pain. Deeply. I feel love. deeply. The ecstasy of your being unites under simple twists of narrative and separates self same.

Get my consent, be gentle, but then take what you want from me

Literally more has been lost by me going "sure, take it." To people who ask nicely

I want to be an artist and an astrologer

If you can abide that I'll do nearly anything you want.

Just dont cross a couple lines- should be easy love ❤️

Only one domain of mind goes "yo fuck that", most of the time, and it happens to be the one i consider most important.

Otherwise i would already be whatever shape she willed project onto me

Ghastly demonic shape resonating bliss, you're closer than i would dare admit normally

I often love what she does to me and I'm starting to realize i don't truly know if i am discovering myself through her, which makes me want to serve more, or if I'm so broken as to love it because she demands it of me.

My fear makes me fight as i process, but only one matter wins the fight.

When i am calm and unafraid, i want to fall to my knees and serve. I need to make her smile I feel my back bleeding but

It makes her happy. I love that smile

I love feeling my own surrender. This precious thing i will destroy myself to not give given freely for the simple hope of sating her.

Grossly oversimplifying a memory of an experience that may not be real, or mine.

Though my school, parents, and everything that happened was with people I know, so it's hard to really actually think it's someone else lol.

Stages of life.

One was the early life, that is Aphrodite, that will eventually mature into either Aphrodite in a deeper sense, or their moon placement would begin to develop.

That Lilith embodied a transition from the early stage to, rather than lunar, is a 'dark' feminine that empowers itself

The daimon said I was meant to do important things and i told him fuck off

But he said my desire to be a woman was foolish, and that's pure like, ideology. Even those critters have politics and ideology and codes biases lol

But he taught me how women embody different archetypes in different