remember to self care!!!

autism be fucking damned

damidami on repeat for the (checks lastfm) 61st time today, save me comfort song save me

point and laugh at him because he has feelings!! haha!! stupid dog, having feelings and.. feeling things!! how stupid and dumb!! (affectionate) somebody throw him in the shower, ruffle him dry then paint his nails and put his favorite song on and watch him dance like a bug with no brain to it

doggy anxiety reminder

okay, wait. when i say 'distasteful' i mean i personally feel guilty/ashamed of some of my own behaviors. like getting upset over stuff i would usually be okay with, or impulse struggles. i can almost feel somebody shaking their head at me ,, so i am reiterating. i am actively learning !!!

its kind of pmd-like symptoms. maybe that would explain my current struggle with sleeping too,,,
doesn't excuse me from distasteful behavior,, i just have to do self care and try to re/approach life a little gentler when regulated. and try my best, even if it doesn't look like much in that week

the week leading up to my t-shot i am very typically all over the place emotionally and even more sensitive than usual. this time is no exception. awrff. my dosage is right and everything, it just, seems to happen. it's only a week, i survive okay, but yeah,, i wonder if any others on T get this.

this one really gets me

apparently me and castiel (supernatural) are in love. this happened unprompted

this is very good and I will take your love and dog affection, I very much am all over the place emotionally, I love the pile of dog affection

Me @ anyone who is feeling sad / bad tonight

Take my love and dog affection

MY FRIEND IS PLAYING TOMODACHI LIFE AND MADE ME AND PILLOW AND I HAD NO IDEA I'M CRYING THEY DREW PILLOW SO CUTE AND THESE ARE ALL SO FUNNY

wrff,, mmn I know it well, I feel this all very deeply,, it is hard to not be afraid of being this way with people,, i want to be able to say more to this, but i am running out of words,, awrff. I hope we all get to romp and play and just be, one day

i want a life full of expression, because choosing to express what is deeply entwined within me is actively healing my soul

simply by existing i defy expectation. furthermore i choose to keep doing so, and to actively express myself. i chose to stop stifling it, to wear it on my body. i could lock it all back up, i could pull away and go back to the cage, but i know it's not what i want my life to be. i want to live free

it's a difficult place to be, appreciating that i have a human body that allows me to express so much, to be able to use it to create— to love the body, and love how it can feel. but to also feel so uneasy within it. with society's expectations of it. to actively defy those, in part not by choice.

i know that we'll all find our places, we won't be yearning forever. even today, sitting alone in the leaves and chasing a moth, it was a brief moment of letting the mask off that felt good, even if putting it back on so soon and abruptly just kind of,, mnm, i don't have a word for it. awruff.

yes.. we aren't alone in this, that truth is comforting for me, and that we're not doomed to pretend forever means so much. i don't want to facade as a human all the time, or pretend that the animal part of me isn't as huge and integral as it is

wild

a white dog is walking on a tiled floor ALT: a white dog is walking on a tiled floor

i hope you're doing okay, hearing that means a lot, thank you

maybe i just need to paint my nails, jerk off for 3 hours and nap

i wish sometimes that i was not so animal, maybe then i could feel 'normal' and want to do things like people do, have a capacity similar to them instead of being weird, or want to talk like them. instead of just making stupid noises or wanting to wander off or be like a dog. not be so sensitive.

doesn't your soul feel at rest out here

I'm glad you got them all now ;w; i can't imagine going two weeks without plushies,, very glad they are all safe, and that you can sleep soundly!

i can't explain why this song makes me sob so violently and makes my soul ache so much. i am sure i could try to explain it, but i don't think words could do the feelings and emotions justice. i just know i feel it so deeply

that would be so cute...

it is always relieving to get home after a very, very long day to my plushies and comfort space. i don't sleep good when away from my own bed, i'm sure floppy missed his friends, too,, they are cuddling happily now

that is such an awesome sweet thing to say ;w; 🩷🩷