its happening again…

want to fuck up my arm

i hate myself

i just have very little regard for my own well being so i end up not caring much if i overdo it with the substances or if i hurt myself

i wish i loved myself more. maybe then i wouldn’t be abusing myself

being reliant on it is bad i think

getting high is fun but i hope i won’t do it as much eventually

i need the relief so bad

ssris plus being on injections has made it nearly impossible to cum from just jerking off im gonna cry…

some casual sex with a friend would be kinda nice rn

i am not a good person

i know you can do it

god i feel like shit

i want someone to save me

i wanna die so badly

nobody should give a shit anyway

just existing is a huge burden

i need an outlet

i need to buy myself a box cutter

thinking about cutting

sorry i took a nap and i’m normal now i think

fallen angel

i don’t understand how i have so many followers. is it just because i look cute? is it pity? what draws you to me, how am i worth taking up space on your timeline

i wonder how many ppl have me muted atp

everyone else is so much better at hiding their depressing thoughts yet i’m way too open about it, i really look like i’m just throwing myself pity parties all the time :/ so pathetic

i need to make everyone fall in love with me

i appreciate it sweetie

i wouldn’t mind hooking up with a guy either honestly. i just worry about meeting a creep or someone that wants to hurt me idk if it’d be worth taking the risk

the thought of a boy calling me a good princess and railing me nice and hard still makes it worth questioning though

i need sex so bad i’m too cute for someone not to be making me their bitch