whats the point of like 90% of conversations

WHEN I ASK A QUESTION ABT WHAT SOMEONE DOES I CLEARLY WANT A DEEP REFLECTION ABT YOUR INTERESTS AND NOT JUST GET GIVEN THE RUN OF THE MILL RESUMÉ PREAMBLE. IM NOT HIRING YOU, IM TRYING TO BE YOUR FRIEND FOR FUCKS SAKE, EUGHH

vitriol

i miss my programming language friends

i don't struggle with learning, im just dumb

im not dumb, i just struggle with learning

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKING PHONE ITS RUINING MY LIFE FUCKKK I HATE COMPUTERS I HATE THE INTERNET FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT PARASITIC WASTE OF SILICON SOCIAL CONTAGION SHITFUCKER WIZARDRY okay thank you

me when the euphoric rush hits but i don't end up doing anything and then just feel shit afterwards

i hope things get better soon (they usually do)

i wonder what my life would look like if i didn't like computers or math

i should have been french

i don't think im ever gonna not get sidetracked by anything and everything that just so happens to find itself adjacent to what im doing

i sometimes feel like an explosive primed to go off at any minute but i just don't

strong eventual consistency... heh... sigh... i wish

my life is so worth it... don't kill yourself, otherwise you won't be able to do computer science

žižek reminds me of my nanna

i thought deleting discord would offer me some sort of moral clarity but instead it just made me realize i can enjoy things without the entire world knowing that im enjoying it. apparently its only compelling for others to caricature discord when you're using it

i don't know whether to avoid interacting with people who use AI tools or just to ignore their usage so that i can pretend it doesn't exist nor bother me

me and my boyfriend are gonna make a homepage together :3

me when i uh when i uh buy textbooks i can't read and then uh waste money but then remember i have the textbook a year later and am able to understand it uh um uh yeah

i was born into the wrong generation, i wish i was alive when hardcore was still cool

we need to stop analogies, no more analogies

im so tireeeeeeeed
bleh

why the fuck do i sometimes just forget how to swallow pills so i end up refilling a glass with a pill in my mouth

i think save scumming is good actually bc otherwise i wouldn't enjoy playing games bc i need constant dopamine

things i need to do (bad)
minecraft (good)

120 rupees for a monster is a fucking steal wth

pawtism

i need to separate my self-worth from the unconventionality of my hobbies

i lack the insight to interrogate why i find things so appealing and instead form unhealthy obsessions with particular aesthetics