Sasiah wearing a dark lipstick and smiling at the camera. She has visibly lost a lot of weight. She is wearing a dark maroon knitted sweater and her hair is down below her waist.

I'm still alive. No more pain unless I drink too fast.

Is this feeling normal what everyone feels like with no pain or anything that's detrimental to their bodies? I can barely remember the last time I felt normal. Probably when I was like 9 years old almost 40 years ago.

Yay! Got your message @j-cutter.bsky.social. TY for checking.

As it should be. Can't wait to see the finished project!

Tabby cat fast asleep on a cat tree.

Today is the long johns type of day at home. Lounging in comfort wear while working.

I feel Pixel has the right idea from last night - to sleep.

Sounds like she's well on her way to full recovery! I'm proud of her. 💖 Props to you for taking care of her during the unexpected.

Oh! That sounds like quite the project. 👀

@j-cutter.bsky.social Did you get Chris' texts? 💖 Couldn't message you on here for some reason.

My favorite sticker that I got from the phlebotomist office.

I was looking at the screen and the door was behind me to my left. So when I was done and I turned to my left. He was standing there smiling and I shrieked then apologized for shrieking. 😂🫣 Incisions are healing. Nerve damage will go away with time.

Now I'm home and just trying not to drown.

This is amazing for accessibility so far. This was taken yesterday for my post op follow up in Downtown Dallas.

I was by myself - my surgeon came in while I was preoccupied with this toy and totally scared me. I think I made his day since he was faintly smiling the entire time. 💀😂

My dad sent me 2 surprise gifts during my big sad. A lit up purple/pink roses angel w/ kidney stone plush. 💖

I had a gallstone that sent my liver enzymes to nearly 5X its normal levels due to bile duct blockage hence why emergency surgery. At least my surgeons were with me for Valentine's Day.

🤟💖🤟💖 I'll definitely hit you up soon. I've been surviving day by day for now. Been sleeping, working, and playing WOW as you've seen when I can stand to.

I've had to work remote for the majority of the day/week due to emergency surgery. If I wasn't able to, I'd be fired already.

Love this!
@gaiazelle.bsky.social

I'm alive. Going to be discharged.

Big sad at the moment.

Stuck in downtown Dallas until tomorrow's surgery then couple more days. Bile duct stone isn't passing (too big) so ... So far only my husband has visited me and he could stay for a few hours but had to head home due to being in pain. It's really hard without a solid support system. 💔

Been in constant pain since Monday night either from my abdomen or my head. I think the abdominal pain is worse but the headache is competing with it. Pain Meds were given last night and now with me NPO, has to be via IV. The hug I got from a nurse today totally made my day.

Of course I'm back in the hospital - waiting on being transferred to a specialized hospital at downtown Dallas for a procedure. I've been here for 24 hours now and I haven't eaten or drank anything since Tuesday night. I have a bile duct obstruction - even without a gallbladder. I'm so lucky.

Real talk though. The only thing that is helping me sleep is sleeping meds. Too many things going through my mind and I feel like I'm drowning in things that needs to be done but not enough time.

The only thing that's keeping me going is coffee.

People ask me how the hell am I being so strong? I just smile and shrug.

Little do they know that I'm being slowly destroyed inside. I'm just in survival mode. I don't know how long I can hang on before I get swept away.

Not gonna lie, I loved it when I was in Ohio last December and my friends made time to see me. I made time to see them too. I was so happy.

I don't miss the weather there but I miss being able to feel actually supported and loved other than my husband. I miss being invited to local events.

I don't have a support system here in Texas. I'm fortunate that my husband has good friends that are willing to help out. Just wish my side cared so much to maybe drop by and say hi or even a hug. Two emergency surgeries and nothing. Am I really that hated? Not even a tea.

Margins all clear. So we just wait and watch.

I'm incredibly angry about all of how life is. It's just bullshit in the end.

So much has happened within the last month or two.

My husband was diagnosed with colorectal cancer, stage 2. Luckily lymph nodes that were taken out with the partial colectomy tested negative so it's contained for now. Big sigh of relief. He'll be discharged today after 6 days in the hospital.

A tabby cat is "smiling" while curled up on Sasiah's face.

Love it when Nermal does that. He makes my neck so nice and toasty while he purrs himself to sleep.

Is it good that I completely missed the trailer and can see only the photo? Reminds me of Hellraisers.

I know I give you a hard time sometimes - sorry about that. 🤟

Gorgeous! 😱💖😍

Tolerating some food as long as it's not even 1/4 cup worth. If I try to do more, I will regret it. Most of the time, it's just protein shakes.

Counting down the days until Monday. The pain is worse at night, not sure why.

As bad as it sounds like, I'm enjoying being able to do more physically. 😈