I’m having a big bad creative slump

time to audition for shows again
or go into the wilderness and try to pick my way through the artists’ way again
or or or or or

I had a panic attack Wednesday because my dad exploded about something small and no one checked, my mom didn’t even ask if I was ok and she witnessed it happening

god I want to be home in my own bed with my own cats and nothing is technically stopping me from just taking my keys and leaving but also responsibility

but also I’m regressing pretty negatively into bad habits and feel like I’m on an island

Well…yes!

SCUTTLES TO YOUR OTHER DMS

being summoned from the grave yes sush

God i love him

PEAK album tbh

Use the dial to push the product up until the stopper pops out!

Bingo Blitz is my peepaw game, I also downloaded the anime horse girl game and it is strategic but cute

Don’t worry, I have a bingo app now 😮‍💨

the next time i come here emoposting out of nowhere ask me if i’ve stocked up on midol

I’m not saying it’s a pattern but it’s weird it happened twice lmao

“do all my friends hate me, or do i just need to go to sleep”

yeah

dw i’ll cry about it and be fine in the morning 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

this does not help that i spent most of Thursday pretending to be far more competent than i was and unable to take a compliment from work colleagues because I was assured they could see through me

my head is going 90 miles a minute about crafting drag numbers and i am actively fighting back that voice in my head that says no one gives a fuck and it’s uninteresting

i’m so glad my self-esteem is such a complicated tangle after being made to feel like i was second rate for years

I’m sipping gin + tonic in the back of a weird bar. I’ve made it.

I REMEMBER THE EEL DID THIS NOW GOD

“I used to pray for days like this,” and it’s just having a warm home where my bills are paid, the candle smells like fall, and my Stardew is modded.

Ladson ALOOOOONE

me: I think I’m pretty much an ambivert! I like staying in and going out equally!

also me after two days in a row of socializing: hey google how do I become a hermit

did unsettling, sad drag last night

that’s the second time I’ve done a number and it feels like I black out and wake up afterward, unaware of what I did on stage

but people seemed to enjoy the act, I’m learning to cradle those compliments close

I believe in you!!!!

the book nook scent from bath and body works in my room

call that wizardcore

Honestly as a somewhat Gale kinnie who can take or leave Bloodweave, there’s that crumb of “let’s live in the underdark and help care for vampire spawn” which also includes a Vampiric book club and sneaking into libraries together.

Portrait of a man light up by blue light against an isolated grey background. Two curled horns frame his head. One of his eyes is glowing red. Abstract flames surround the figure.

"The frontiers demanded a blade. And so I heeded." (Gift art) #wyllbg3 #wyllravengard #bg3

No you’re so right

it feels fake! I keep waiting for something bad to happen or to wake up from a dream but no, I’m just doing really well for myself rn!

I really wish I could accurately explain how it feels to be inside my head right now

Everything is flourishing, my work is paying off, my ass is fat, my rent is paid

WHATS SEXIER THAN WIZARDS NOTHING

#baldursgate3 #galedekarios #galeofwaterdeep #bg3 #bg3cosplay #galecosplay