I am terrified for my country. I don't know how we come out of this.
But I know this: I won't be silent. I will do my best to use my anger, my privilege, and my voice to fight for what's right and moral.
I can't do everything but I will do what I can.
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Posts by Apostate Abish
There is nothing comfortable about what this moment demands of us. I stand firmly against this administration, the DHS, and the DOJ's failure to protect its most vulnerable. I stand against a system that excuses abuse and covers it up.
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What's unfolding feels terrifyingly familiar to those of us who were raised Mormon.
I was taught that blind obedience and trusting authority is a virtue. I was taught not to question, not to protest, not to make people uncomfortable.
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Today, as I processed another death at the hands of the federal government, I watched police in my own community, act as aggressors, pushing protesters to the ground.
I'm in awe of those who continue to witness, document, and resist the violence ICE is inflicting on our communities.
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I've been quiet on my Abish accounts because surviving this moment in
American history has taken everything I have.
I've been protesting, calling my elected leaders and raising my voice. I have been silent here, but in my personal life I have been loud and angry.
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😢 that is terribly sad and I’m so sorry.
Ha! 3 by 20yo is wild. Were your parents happy?
Whoa!
Sorry feels a bit hollow, tbh. But my heart goes out to you.
I’m so sorry. 😪
Love this.
I was in seminary in the 90s too, outside the Mormon belt. Graduated HS in ‘96.
Same. I was taught to believe their marriage was the gold standard love and respect.
I was taught polygamy was restored by JS, but not practiced it like BY did. That he ‘married’ a few women to be obedient but that’s it. That it was a choice women could make. I had zero clue about the teens, the coercion, or sending men on missions and marrying their wives until my 30s.
Congrats!
Rothenburg, Germany. Followed by Innsbruck, Austria.
Wishing you a good recovery!
I understand all these feelings.
Sounds dreamy!
Thank you, Alli. 💜
Thank you. 💛
Thank you, Sara. I’m glad it resonated with you.
Happy Mother's Day to those untangling their inheritance and choosing what to carry forward.
To everyone who inherited a plan that didn't quite fit and dared to draft their own ending. We are the mothers of our own souls.
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Some of us come from a long line of women who prayed. Some of us come from women who asked questions. My matrilineal line is made of both. It's woven together with sacrifice, rebellion and reverence, and defiance. It's messy, unfinished, and beautiful.
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I honor the women who raised me: those who survived within the system and those who dared to challenge it. The women who nurtured my curiosity and mind, who gave me a tender heart and the strength to carve my own path, even when my version of holy looks different from theirs.
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This Mother's Day, I'm honoring a lineage that holds both devotion and defiance. The woman who chose faith. The woman who chose freedom. And the work it takes to reckon with both.
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I was taught a woman's worth lived in fulfilling the roles of wife and mother. That heaven was a reward for submission and obedience. But like the woman who came before me, I chose a path different from the one l inherited. Not because it was easier, but because it didn't fit.
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Another woman chose religion. She stepped willingly into Mormonism and found comfort in its structure, and purpose in its promises. I don't fault her for that. The system gave her safety, identity, and answers.
For a while, it gave those things to me, too.
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Thinking today about the women who shaped me.
One rejected the religion of her ancestry and turned down an arranged marriage, walked away from tradition, and bravely built a life on her own terms. Her 'no' was a quiet, radical act of rebellion.
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When you’ve spent your entire life being taught there’s only one way to be happy, it takes incredible courage to say “I’m not happy here”.
To all who have left the religions that harmed you and built a new life for yourself, I see you. I honor you.
We have risen. ❤️