You are supposed to be triggered when someone mistreats, lies to, or disrespects you. You can heal to lessen the intensity of that trigger, but having a reaction to poor treatment means your body is alive, alert, and reminding you that you deserve better.

I'm so in love 🥰

rip little Dwaekki baby. another battery died.
I think I'll take a little break for now.

instead of 'good morning' my phone wanted to text 'good girl' - I like that.

two women sitting opposite to me are holdings hands, I'm smiling like crazy. 🥰
love those little moments.

Dwaekki is still doing well. I bet the battery will die soon.

It's ridiculously easy to care for the skzoo tamagotchis. I thought it would be a bit more challenging.
You don’t even have to learn a few korean words.

“You’re still hurt by that? That was a long time ago!”

Not to a nervous system. Abusive behavior puts a brain on constant alert to send warning so it doesn’t happen again. It was a long time ago for the perpetrators, but survivors remember & experience it like it was yesterday.

To understand the life of a person with cPTSD, is to understand they’ve experienced multiple traumas and after each one, people taught them how to adapt to that pain, rather than making the traumas stop.

Does this mean you got two little fluff balls? 🥺 they're so cute!

I'm trying to sleep.

which obviously means I'm reading articles about leaving the country and learning another language.

this time, it's Iceland

I had to deal with an insane amount of anger today.
Now I'm contemplating how pissed off I should still be tomorrow.

(like I said, insane)

Dwaekki baby and an ice cream cone next to him.

His snack is ice cream. I will feed you well, baby.

Baby No 2
please welcome
Dwaekki 🩷
He hatched yesterday, November 1st, and is the cutest little baby.

RIP Bokkari
26.08.2025 - 01.11.2025
if only your batteries would've lasted longer 😭😭😭

NOOOO! His battery died!
I have to leave the house again! 😭😭😭
don't leave me, Bokkari!

I lost this pin today.

absolute intense, unhinged emotional reaction for today, check.

little kinda update:
Bokkari's doing fine. nothing has really changed, and he's kinda easy to take care of?
I'm glad he's happy.

it's so sweet how my cat begs for her treats (medicine) every time like baby, I'm doing this specifically for you. no one will take it away. ♡

the butterfly sits on my finger with their wings closed

the other three picture show the butterfly with their wings open.

Today, in my first few hours of work, I was able to care for a little peacock butterfly.
Gave that little one some rest, warmth, and fed them a bit. They didn't wanna leave my finger for that. It was so cute. Their wings were a bit damaged, but they flew around so well.

I really need my brain to activate their memory loss superpower, and FORGET this weekend even existed.
instead of imagining situations that DIDN'T EVEN HAPPEN!

stupid mental health walks are stupid.

thank you.
I just feel horrible.

fuck social anxiety and everything else that's wrong with me.
just once I thought I'd be able to socialise like a normal person but yet here we are.
I thought I'd done well those few hours. But here I am overthinking anyways.
bold of me to assume I could handle a party.

lazy but smart:

I'll have ice cream after dinner today. I put it into a cooling bag so I don't have to get up again and (for)get it.

I envy people who create things and still like them when (if) they're done.
I'm mostly disgusted and want to get rid of it.

People have a hard time detecting red flags when they grow up being taught to normalize the way they were being hurt by people who were supposed to protect them.

today, while complaining about too many tasks to do, I got reminded of even more tasks I had already forgotten again. ._.

makes me sad that those are such wild examples for me.
probably says much about my experience with friendships.

another one:
one of them is struggling. and it shows. they notice. care about it. talk about what they can do. and they're doing something about it.

one situation:
they were shopping for an occasion. one found an amazing blazer. tons of supportive comments. but they couldn't afford it, and without question, everyone chipped in.