i keep a lot of thoughts about how my sexuality’s been changing to just random yapping in private, but it’s so real 😵‍💫

friendly reminder that if you say something to me in a firm and slightly annoyed voice i'll basically fall to my knees and let you do whatever you want so long as you don't get angry ♥︎

"You don't really have a family, do you? You're just saying that to make me feel bad."

and that’s totally okay, it doesn’t bother me at all <3.

ALSO THANK YOU SALEM I REALLY AM LIVING MY BEST LIFE

i resolved a longstanding issue of mine, too, which was that i felt too sexual for my online macro crew and not sexual enough for the crew i had at cons and parties. and i love them both!!

it took a combo of forced extroversion and resolving gender issues to finally find my own niche in all this.

naturally some friends won’t want to hear about the puppy play stuff, the noncon, or all the physical abuse.

and that’s fine, i don’t care.

but i’m surprised at just how many of my friends are into it?? this is great, i can keep being Hush instead of splintering another piece of myself off—

part of the reason i wanted to make this AD was to be able to keep macro/paw content on my main and harder, less-size focused stuff on my AD

except i kind of gave up and i’ve been posting my freaky ideas on main. it’s nice to see that i don’t think it’s actually squicked any of my friends off??

real "i'll give you something to cry about" hours

WHEN HAVE YOU NOT BEEN

“hush i shouldn’t mess with you when you’re drunk—“ no actually this is exactly when you should, i WANT that

😈

I probably sound like a broken record but it’s just on my mind a lot, and it IS a bit of a bummer that I can’t seem to muster up much desire, enthusiasm, or time for horny online things anymore

On the plus side, I’m living my best fucked up puppygirl life when I’m not at my screen—

Also kind of crazy to think that I’m not as big into feet as I once used to be, my tastes have really shifted so it’s more about… Headspaces i guess? It’s less about the physical stuff and more about how things make me feel ~emotionally~.

Type-fucking doesn’t hit the same honestly

Maybe it’s a combo of being busy since last summer and being more active in person, but overwhelmingly, online teasing doesn’t reaaally hit the same as it used to??

It’s hard to sink into it when you’re constantly juggling different activities and you’re barely home and in one place 😵‍💫

Working you up with a pawjob so much that you chug a shrinking potion so that I can do it to your whole body

And only when you're exhausted and slumped against my toes and see me grinning down at you do you realize that this maybe wasn't the best idea~

meeting other tgirls is SO nice. having that experience to bond over and talk about our journeys on hormones so far, coming out, etc. it’s so nice

maybe it’s also my age preferences showing but talking to older-than-me tgirls makes me kick my feet in a really fruity little way

i think begging pathetically for your life in front of a woman who is clearly getting off on seeing you break down in the face of your death is one of the hottest things you can do

sex is about having horrible things done to you and feeling guilty and scared of how easy it is for them to do that to you and how much you like it. and the more guilty and scared you are the more sex it is.

it’s true, i see australians and i have to say cunt

GO BLOW YOUR LAB UP AGAIN I’M SURE THE KING WOULD LOVE TO PAY FOR ANOTHER RENOVATION TO THE CASTLE

MAGICIAN

shut up stupid wizard

you spread it to ashen and DT and they wouldn’t stop saying it while we were bar hopping around manhattan

you HAVE laser already you fucking dog cunt

Macro who defends his micro friends until all the other macros get pissed off enough that they decide to take away his size privileges

i guess ultimately it’s the same with sharing any good news, you’ll always have people that’re like “i wish that was me”

not sure if there’s anything you can do but let them vent if they’re a friend. eventually if that’s all they do, it’s hard to even want to ask how someone is though

as nice as it is posting transition-related stuff, comments like “i wish i could do X too” makes me not wanna share this stuff

lately it’s laser hair removal, i’m doing that later this month on my face, i just haven’t posted about it on main ‘cuz i don’t wanna deal with those kinda comments

My mouse sona lives rain world style, where every time he dies he just respawns in another timeline where that didn't happen

yall agree?

i hope he’s doing good now but i would never accept the responsibility of fixing a grown person.

i think i just have this knee-jerk aggression towards people who give off that energy towards me, as if i want to baby someone or be babied myself. like they’re foisting responsibility onto me, ugh~~.

i had an old coworker 4+ years ago who constantly gave off apologetic for existing energy and it was like he was asking for permission to exist from anyone he talked to, always making himself smaller

and it’s spiteful but i’d be lying if i said he wasn’t an inspiration to be anything but that