Ah, so it goes...

I hope you know in your heart of hearts as well as I do that it is really, truly worth it to stick around because there is just so much world to be a part of. There is so much you that can exist if you stay

I used to be so lacking in a sense of self that my whole experience of being alive was desperately trying to claw my way out of a blank space and now I wake up every day so full of self that I hear a new sound or see a new piece of art and am about ready to openly weep

I feel sometimes like I've seen something so profound about the world we live in that nothing could ever convince me that this world is anything but beautiful ever again

Oh, there is a cure here, oh the light is very pure here 🎶

And also because red is my mother's color

The people I love associate me with the color red because the pain of Too Much Color is red

I MAKE PEOPLE SEE COLORS BECAUSE I PAINT IN THE RAINBOW!

LOVE, CHIMERA

The cataclysmic event: the witnessing of feeling

the animal, Human; the Human, animal

A part of the puzzle is to accept being (im)mortal

A part of the puzzle is to accept being (im)mortal

the animal, Human; the Human, animal

The first color I've ever known was Red

My brain is a big pool of watercolor that you can dip your finger in and get messy

The metaphysical context through which to understand myself. My soul's substrate

Lately I'm seeing the things that underpin every interaction I've ever had which make up me

Smear around my colors and join me in the mess

Girl painter

i make decisions, and then they are Assisted

If you can believe anything, know that you will be full of colors again

Even just a few colors is too little. How can only a piece of me keep the rest held up?

I am a girl made of rainbows and when I have no colors I get very sick

to become as a mold. to become as spores

I yearn for much of what I was. I figure I can repurpose my corpse's nutrients

isn't it strange, that a girl can lose herself so wholly that she becomes a husk of herself?

hold my hand—no, *really* hold it—and step into the endless oceans with me