do you ever think about how people describe you when youre not around?

my dream is,

"oh, shes that skinny girl over there, with the cool hair and the pretty smile."

yes it does... good luck bestie, hope his interest kinda wanes on its own 😭

it could be worse. it could always be worse

i wanted it to help with my adhd symptoms and instead i just got eating disorder two electric boogaloo. wtf man

okay i was expecting to get mad that it didnt work but. it DID work, which STILL kinda pisses me off, bc decreased appetite was the ONLY thing that happened and its a side effect...

worked myself to the fucking bone today and yet watch me wake up fat tomorrow anyway. its my special magic trick i call 'being a failure'

I may never truly be likeable or pretty, but maybe someday I can at least be skinny

got my prescriptionnnn decreased appetite wait for me babygirl

TF..... sorry but she sounds really toxic who tf would encourage someone w an ed to diet more... even if she doesnt know like shouldnt she support and love you? and then making you out to be bad.... girl.... 👎👎👎

Depressed girl winter ❌❌❌
Manic girl spring ✅✅✅

not all of it but im back to february. kay my ess

gained it back btw

I'm disgusting

yesterday was kinda fun but mostly ughh. no filter as usual, mean and dirty jokes nonstop and i didnt have time to think and stop them before they were out. i want to be kind smart and reserved but nope, impulsive idiot. at least ppl laughed :/ and guy who proposed fwb twice sat next to me :/

does anyone know of any sp0 threads.... 🫪 <- hey wtf that emojis new

i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.
i’m gonna be skinny by june.

rant over i wish i was a doll, pretty and cared for

its actually on me for still wanting to be loved and romanced. like shouldnt i know im just a thing you can use and toss out when you dont feel like dealing with it anymore. im not even that much work, i keep all my mental issues locked in bluesky&pinterest where they belong. but ig im still me 👎

this was after he already suggested fwb at the end of our final date, and i said 'ha no i do have some self respect' and he said okay haha

he just did not gaf. ive never felt more disgusting, in our dates i tried so hard to be something worth keeping and in the end he just wanted me as a quick fuck

i said no i dont want to have sex without romance. he said okay and we kept painting. i asked if he still wanted to be friends if we werent gonna fuck. he said yes of course.

i felt like he wouldve fucked me if i had a bag on my head, like i was just a piece of meat to him. :(

starving helps ig

on monday i went to paint miniatures w the guy who said he wasnt gonna fall in love with me. it was my idea partially bc i wasnt gonna fall in love with him either, partially bc i was just excited to have a friend w the same hobby as me

after dinner instead of more painting he proposed we have sex

i probably wont have the confidence but i do dream of going braless when im skinny 🍒

24hr fast cause why tf not clearly at this point nothing can 'prevent binges'

didnt work i binged

gained. disappointed but not surprised, hopefully this is the kick in the butt i need to actually get on track again

i thought i had 0 energy before but at least i had energy to sadpost on edsky

im just tired

tube tops are so cute, summer outfit goalz ❤️‍🔥

why do i only lock in on my various tasks and duties after midnight