There is a special kind of heartbreak when people still send you TV jobs.
I want nothing more than to have a career that I love and gives me self worth, and to not exist in a body that betrays me and prevents that.
Instead I feel worthless and lost. A huge part of what makes me *me* was robbed.
And that's my account over on The Dark Place deleted. Enjoy shouting into the void, terfs and other fascists - absolutely no law requires me to listen to or entertain your shite. Enjoy your echo chamber.
When pack up time comes, us Brits are left for dust at the speed they tidy tables and chairs away, wipe down etc. We had a hilarious laugh tonight teaching them about the art of innuendo. I need to get into advocacy work because I want to help people like this. They're wonderful.
The hotels are very basic, there is no "5* luxury" the Daily Mail etc go on about. They come for a homecooked meal because there's no cooking facilities there. Volunteers here launder their clothes because there's no laundry facilities there. And every week they show up, help out, learn English.
Every week I go to a free community meal at a centre run by a Baptist church. There's no religious requirement and most of the other people who go are Muslim refugees being housed in hotels. They are absolutely wonderful people, we have a brilliant laugh and I will fight anyone degrading them.
Early sunset through clouds shines down onto a wide lake, surrounded by bullrushes, with trees in the horizon beyond the lake. The lake is part of the Fairburn Ings nature reserve.
Aging and health issues are a HUGE anxiety trigger for me, but one of the worst things is how violently ill I get just from daring to do something normal like go for a walk. I feel absolutely godawful today.
I'm still living in hope after a year on a waiting list the NHS will help though.
Screenskills give me at least one placement this year challenge
Still failing :(
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Portsmouth with target panic - scored 91. Most of my ends only scored a 1. Yes it's frustrating, but all 3 arrows are in the boss, not on the floor, ceiling, target stand, stopper curtain etc!! So, it's progress. #archery #archeryjourney
The "bluesky is an echo chamber" think pieces that keep popping up really tickle me because they show how certain people genuinely believe social media should be for debating and arguing and not talking about the things that make you happy and sharing art with the world.
Using my horsebow now. Not great but much better than the beginning of the night where I shot the floor, boss stands, back curtain and at one point the roof 🙈 the target panic is slowly being beaten back into submission. #archery
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The world got *fucked* and no-one has any money
People are struggling to pay bills and rent, let alone buy your game
Passed my range assessment yesterday, can't wait to be back shooting again. Just the horrendous target panic to conquer now! #archery #archer
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Everything sucks. The world is on fire. But never forget you are loved and needed. Have a snow monkey to take with you on your journey and bask in it's gift of serenity.
I'm hopefully starting archery again on Tuesday. A small bright spot in an otherwise dark time.
I should probably say something eloquent but all my brain is doing right now is "Aaaaaaaaah!!!! 😱😱😁😁🎉"
Thanks mate, yeah, I'm not motivated by money but I'm definitely not enjoying having to be on unemployment, it doesn't even cover the rent... Really bad times. Keeping the faith and my skills for later in the year 🙏🏻 here's hoping for us all!
It's awful. Hard watching everyone else in the pits with us too. :(
Note to self: post here more.
I wish I had something happy to say, but I'm honestly just depressed. Months without work - editing or any kind - being turned down for normal jobs I can do in my sleep - feel like I have little purpose anymore. I know that's not true but it's very hard.
Unexpected Yule gift to myself by passing my grading for yellow belt! I didn't know it was a grading until I was presented with my paperwork 😅💛🥋
#jujitsu #jiujitsu
Not sure how I'm supposed to read a film 🤔
Applying for "normal" jobs and trying not to feel like I've failed, even though I know it's super tough in the industry right now. I need to be able to pay my rent. 😭
Well, I think it could've gone better, I was a bit shit on one of the tech questions. But I think I was ok on the rest, could've been far worse.
Well the test says not covid, so looks like winter is just being winter - gonna dose myself up to the gills on Lemsip and power through 💪🏻
Nooooo I'm going down with a cold the night before my interview 😭
C o v i d testing tomorrow morning, obvs, with time to call off if needed.
Tried disc golf. I suck, but the park was beautiful - and VERY muddy!
Hey everyone in #postchat who's going to Manchester Post Social, if you're having issues finding us drop me a message!
I have an interview on Monday 🙏🏻