I’ll actually use this account when I can lock it.

Wish I can lock accounts

In retrospect, I completely didn’t know what romance was. Lmao

Shucks.

Can you lock your account on this app?

I’m into ctf and cbt.
Capture the flag and cognitive behaviour therapy.

DRUNK★BOY

I aspire.

Sexy Gayloft

I think in order to use node, you need a transpiler to transpile ts into js. But I haven’t touched TS in a while so I kinda forgot what the deal was… or if babel is needed and stuff.

Yeah. It’s leagues better. lol

Also, it’s incredible how good of a lawyer my brother is.
Pretty sure I’m one of the first to get their ass on responding to us on time.

We set a fire under their ass and they know they’ll lose if they go to court.

Tw*tt*r is offering to settle.

I could use this chunk of change… but I want more.

Deno is made by the author of Node!
They’re basically the same but with Typescript and something to do with security.

I love this dude so much.

Drew this guy again in between commissions and homework

Yeah. I realized that in order for me to achieve that next level of attraction, I need to get to know someone in a way that I can FULLY trust that they want me and for them to feel the same way about me.
It’s very important to me.

I wonder how popular deno is.
Now that TS is the standard, I would have figured it to overtake node.

Some ADHD thoughts from yesterday.

What sucks about my symptom of ADHD is that whenever I have a good time, I crash few days later.
It’s too consistent.

Personally, complete sexual liberation isn't possible without some emotional attachment.
If I was doing this for the general populace, I'd add "One Night Stand" in that bottom left space.

Maybe "Queer Family" on the top right overlapping with Companion?

I donno, this is also helpful for expectation setting.
Sometimes, you just want to be a friend; other times, you're really looking for an intimate partner.

Since the degree of friendship depth is so vast, this could ground what people want from a friendship and where it leads

- Love for some people is very specific. For me, it is a gradient. From strangers all the way to people I would take bullets for.
- Relationships are highly complex and this is VERY reductive. But descriptors are helpful.
- These things make me think that I'm a bit autistic. lol

I hope this isn't too weird.

Notes:
- I know "fuck buddy" has a bad connotation but I mean it in a neutral way.
- I think it's fine that people stay in spaces where you aren't expressive of love and lust. This is how we orbit with each other. If everyone is a friend, no one is.

Thinking about more precise terms to describe "friends" and made this graphic.

This exercise describes one way I can use terms to describe the people around me.

It would be so incredible for Tw*tter settlement to net me an good chunk of money.
It's been hard paying for this place and for my mom's legal fees as well as her living expenses.

I also hope her lawsuit finishes soon...

🐯zzz
#furryart

Sorry for the gibberish.
But at my core, this is who I am at the moment.
And thinking about this was important to me.

I guess it is quite yote-like.
In a way, it is my punk.

Going back, if living is an act of resistance against the universe.
I want to live as hard as I can.

For me to force people to change is perpendicular to my philosophy.
To have control over friends is fundamentally against who I am.

For someone to restrain me (outside of sex) is to use water against fire.
For me to have to change FOR someone is asking me to not be Kaz.

Some tangible examples:
I HATE the idea of controlling friends (outside of things like sex). Demanding what they HAVE TO or CAN'T do, or WHO and HOW they need to be.
Because I love them and I want them to have the utmost freedom.