I just really really like leotards and socks and arm warmers. I think the skin that you show in between those areas are more appealing than the entire thing

today's warmup

so relevant today

maybe crying is good (needs more research)

you're a real one for the things that you said today. thanks again. they were good tears I promise

I did, don't worry. And I know. I don't get why though, I'm such a dumbass

I'm in this post, god, same

I'm quite possibly the biggest idiot on this planet

Tragic: Your favorite artist has broken down in tears multiple times today being afraid of consequences that never happened while everyone around them have been incredibly supportive and loving, which only made them cry even more, only to find out they didn't take their meds in time

no dinner two coffees at night into manic state and crying on the bathroom kind of saturday haha sometimes you just gotta let it out you know god damn I'm so BAD at taking care of myself but whatever it was I think I got it out of my system. I'm fine.

thank you for telling me all these things. I really do appreciate what you have to say and I feel a lot better. I'll do my best to keep being honest with my art.

''I can't be doing this thing at this point in my life'' please don't read that and take it to heart. do whatever brings you joy. don't listen to the demons. this was mostly a vent. I wasn't feeling super about it. it is exactly because you're an adult that you can wear diapers.

I appreciate you telling me this. it makes me feel a little better knowing that I haven't done harm by idolizing and weaponizing my depression in art. at least. not to the extreme degree my mind is telling me I have.

well I'm glad you managed to salvage something good out of it. I sometimes think that if I just let these feelings out others will see it and it'll ruin their day. like, I don't wanna contribute to bring anyone down if I can help it...I don't wanna spread the rot, I wanna help against it.

or maybe I'm just in a REALLY negative mindset right now and I'm just airing some thoughts. who knows. it'll pass I'm sure. don't take me seriously please, diapers are great. I'm just going through a thing I suppose.

this is what we call diaper negativity and looking back on this I haven't contributed anything positive by making this and I feel like i've done a disservice to myself by mixing negative thoughts and my frustrations over my fetish

more low energy warmups. done with no energy, after being sick all week. it's hard to judge myself over a drawing without taking into account how shitty I've been feeling both physically and mentally but I wish I didn't sucked at art as much as I have been this year.

warmup

star ⭐

#furryart #foxes

Raddums art channel +18 manderino arterino

reminder that I have a telegram channel where I post art and sometimes a bit of random stuff in it (website blew up today so might as well throw this as a reminder to follow me there to watch me arts)

t.me/daibondiolas

thank you. I'm trying to draw things how I feel them more than being mechanical about it

i am incredibly sick and somehow managed to pull a coherent sketch

warmup

conundrum

guilmon is eager for their change, maybe a lil too excited about it...

I owe like $200 in psychiatric bills and I've had a really, really slow 2 months, sorry to beg but I'm in a bit of a rough spot at the moment :( , I'll try to stream this week to make up for it and hopefully fix my schedule
ko-fi.com/raddums

it could also be, y'know, depression and -gestures at the state of the world-

sometimes I'm afraid I might not be queer enough because I seldom get excited about things anymore and I just feel, out of place. like a stranger.

how to be a productive artist:

open canvas
sketch
hate the sketch
clear
try again
nope
okay maybe this canvas is cursed
open new one
try to draw again
still hate the sketch
spins canvas a few times
crashout

You can do it...