i hate it so fucking much
it makes everyone's lives worse when they have to constantly convince me that they don't hate me
i can't blame anyone for not wanting to be around me like this
it doesn't even stop with myself. it wants me to hate myself
it doesn't stop even with the people closest to me. the people I trust the most. I think the filter came off yesterday and it's just been bombarding me with intrusive thoughts ever since
boy I wish my brain would stop trying to convince me that everyone secretly thinks I'm a worthless waste of air
A tiny snack for a big 'vali
Happy birthday @kaanavali.bsky.social 🎂
I was so isolated as a kid and a teenager. My parents wanted weeks of notice whenever I wanted to visit a friend's place, so I just didn't. All of my best friendships ended up online because that was the only way to spend time with people outside of a classroom.
I can't wait to be free of this stupid shit that makes me break down
I can't wait to be living away from them and not have to wonder if they're going to scream at the top of their lungs at me for forgetting to do a chore
I feel so selfish because I was never physically abused and my parents are nice *sometimes*
I'm crying now because I wish I had the normal childhood most people experienced
They never used positive reinforcement. Only negative. They want me to be successful in life but that's it.
I hate my parents for mostly ignoring my mental health while raising me. It was always an afterthought. I'd get yelled at and all of my communication devices forcefully taken away from me on a whim. I was called retarded, mentally ill, stupid, a liar, a psychopath.
It's so fucking stupid. I actively recognize that they're flashbacks that don't have any reason to affect my current actions or emotions. But brain juice
Or just now when I accidentally locked myself out of my VR headset. It felt like all the times my mom threatened to break my phone even though that was the only way I could talk to anyone.
Me: Ok I need to do my taxes
Brain: Don't. Last time you did your taxes, your parents yelled at you until you cried
Me: I'm doing it myself this time
Brain: They're gonna do it again
Me: They're not even here
Brain: I'm gonna secrete extreme fear chemicals to prepare you
I definitely have some form of CPTSD. I keep having flashbacks to my parents taking everything I love away from me and it makes certain minor inconveniences send me into a panic attack
Commission!
Vore Jail. forever trapped to be swallowed over and over again, a dragon's play-thing.
#animated
#vore
old animation from 2017
#vore #voreanimation
my dumbass forgot to subdivide the render
have more polygons
holy fuck. I'd spontaneously combust if there was a POV view of this
An internal view of a pink and red maw and a hand going down the throat
Maw internal for @rouenalmer.bsky.social!
#vore #nsfw #mawshot
CW: Vore, Mawplay
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"Savor the Flavor" (from 2023)
Gotta make sure you thoroughly taste the Alto :3
I'm not your goal to obtain. I'm not your friendship to win. I'm not a thing to brag about knowing. I'm a person.
Some people really need to realize when they're being parasocial. Just because I'm nice to you or I helped you with something doesn't mean I'm instantly a friend you can message constantly. It really creeps me out.
cw maw vore
c NompedKitty Viewer gets eaten by a cat
cw vore
also thick tongues
