i dont see myself ever free of this disorder and ive been nauseous from hunger for hours now + my fucking eye is about to explode because of the migraine that started around an hour ago

i relapsed. hello everyone

i bet it feels nice to be physically repulsed by food and have no appetite at all

i literally bought a kilogram of breaded chicken yesterday i have no idea what to do with it i could barely finish what i heated on a. Pan today. i genuinely don't know what to eatbecause i seem to hate a good half or 2/3rds of worldwide food and products. image isnt related im just clumsy

it took me several years of my life to realise that i actually severely dislike breaded chicken or turkey and that the animal protein leaves an extremely weird aftertaste in my mouth

25th birthday today i have become an unc

when i started developing an ED i always held on to this idea that if i got sick enough that life would stop and everyone would care about me, fawn over me, and all the horrible adult expectations of the world would just be replaced with everyone wanting me to get better. but its just not true is it

was that a nice interaction or did i just have an autism blunder: an autobiography by me

i feel like this image everytime i force myself to cook and drag myself into the kitchen and then overcook my gyozas making them look like 9/11 victims

going to bed on a vacuum empty stomach im so fucking normal about food and life.

IT PISSES ME OFF SO FUCKING MUCH THAT YOU STILL HAVE TO EAT EVEN WHEN YOURE INCREDIBLY BUSY AND/OR INVESTED INTO SOMETHING AND CANT AFFORD TO TAKE BREAKS LIKE WHAT THE FUCKKKKK WGAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK ABOLISH FOOD NOW FOOD IS IMMORAL AND SHOULDN'T EXIST

revolutionary idea... what if i stop eating

vegan japchae

i really envy people with high TDEEs because my maintenance calorie limit is barely 1200 and whenever i restrict i can fucking feel it

im tired of going to bed hungry to the point of nausea and waking up hungry

i fucked up these 4 gyozas so fucking bad this image belongs to r/kitchencels

im ugly and i have zero skills and prospectives but i know for sure my life would be better if my face was thinner

food is just food it has no value for me neither symbolical cultural or any other one whatsoever its not important and i can waste it or refuse it (gaslighting myself) food is literally nothing

dinner

I recall seeing a few others doing this some days or weeks ago, thought I could try it (*´▽`*)

Hey guys I want to help this lady in my city. ICE tried to disappear her & she fought back. Let's make her day! Like & share please!

i dont look like an emaciated teenage boy and im going to punish myself for it for the rest of my life

doing CIA level manipulation on myself to convince that im not interested in eating its undesirable gross and uninteresting and that i avoid it because its simply not for me

going out tomorrow with my new friend i hope she likes me. im going to eat whatever i want in a restaurant ive chosen and if im strong i will fast the rest of the day after a lunch