You know what? Fuck it. Blackout.

I wish 1) I lived somewhere with pavement 2) I didn't have a gimpy Osgood-Schlatter knee so I could actually (learn to) run with my dog. 😥

Comment on a seemingly insightful AuDHD post on Instagram and get an auto-bot DM invitation to sign up for their course.


SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHHHH.

Of course, yesterday was hard. They were checking the smoke detectors so there was constant beeping for an hour+, then they tested the fire alarm, and next here comes a guy to adjust my desk but he was big and NOT LISTENING and he kept TOUCHING MY STUFF and he completely fucked up my monitors.

The one thing I will never understand about NTs is energy levels. I've never done well with a 40hr week. Yesterday was hard; today I am DEAD. And yet most of my coworkers (collective, past & present) who seem to sail through also have children!! So what's my excuse for being so fucking tired?!

Sending Home to You - song and lyrics by Natasha Barbieri | Spotify Natasha Barbieri · Sending Home to You · Song · 2025

For this #MusicWomenWednesday I'd like to share this lovely holiday song just released by my amazing friend Natasha Barbieri! 🥰 #mezzosoprano #classicalcrossover

open.spotify.com/track/3Sc1kj...

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I just stirred up SO MUCH DUST from digging for one stupid Christmas ornament... yes I have a "shoving things in boxes and forgetting about them" problem... guess going through everything I just dragged out (and getting rid of most of it) is my end-of-year reset project...

Early xmas present to myself. 🙃⚾️

#baltimoreorioles #letsgoOs #baseball

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My dad shared this link with me... thought I'd pass it on...

www.soundonsound.com/news/12-days...

#plugins #soundtoys #giveaway #audio #production #sounddesign #music #musicmaking #musicproduction

Gah, having feelings is so yucky. Like a chest full of fuzzy caterpillars. (Was going to say worms, but it's not THAT gross. I mean it is, but...)

I've always hated that about that side of the family. Anybody's news / business / personal life is fair game to be passed along the gossip chain. "BECAUSE WE'RE YOUR FAMILY AND WE LOVE YOU" -- and they think they DESERVE ACCESS to me. I'm so fucking angry right now.

Also love that my grandmother has been telling everyone "where" I work even though she didn't actually know.

Love that I get a job helping people and my family is reacting OH THEY'RE TERRIBLE IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO GET SOMEONE ON THE PHONE blah blah. You wanna pay more taxes for more state employee salaries? No? Then shut up.

You know, I basically have to just keep reminding myself that Threads is closer to Facebook than Instagram in the Meta-verse.

Guys, can we all appreciate how this genius can't even use the r-slur in the correct grammatical form? 🧐

"We didn't have #autism back in my day..."

How many seniors do we know who, not being senile nor otherwise forgetful, just really relish telling the SAME STORY(IES) all the time?

👀

I'm a pretty dang good baker if I do say so myself, but the rolling pin is my MORTAL ENEMY. I hate cookie recipes you have to roll out. And into a perfect rectangle?! Forget it. Those raggedy edges are going into my mouth raw.

I have a hard time "stealing five minutes" to write, short of jotting down an idea that was already in my head. To actually generate words or edit I need the time & space to be able to hyperfocus, and that's not something I can pop in and out of. #audhd #adhd #actuallyautistic #hyperfocus #writing

Man, having a three-day week for Thanksgiving was nice. The back/shoulder/neck pain has returned with a vengeance on day 4 this week. 🙃

A few years back I bought a cheap knockoff "skull shaver" off Amazon and was utterly disappointed.

But today, with my New Job First Paycheck Money lol, I bought a "Remington Balder Pro" and... MEIN GOTT, y'all. True love DOES exist! 😍😍😍 Shoulda broken up with the foil trimmer ages ago!

Goddammit, there's this little motif in HMS Pinafore (Gilbert & Sullivan) that I SWEAR is lifted straight from "Welche Wonne, Welche Lust" (Mozart). It hurts my brain every time -- hearing them both in my mind simultaneously.

They need a "polymath" or "multipotentialite" (😖) that's broader than "ambivert" but not as extreme as DID... just... some of us are chameleons AND we enjoy it. Call it the frustrated actor in me lol.
But seriously, if you want me to "describe my personality" I need the context & social environment.

Stream A Good Man (To Love a Bad Girl) [demo 2021] by Harrie HQ | Listen online for free on SoundCloud Stream A Good Man (To Love a Bad Girl) [demo 2021] by Harrie HQ on desktop and mobile. Play over 320 million tracks for free on SoundCloud.

Uploaded an "oldie" for #MusicWomenWednesday ... An #originalsong demo from 2021. I'd like to write more in this style... sortof pop jazz noir, a little bit #darkcabaret , a little bit #burlesque & #vaudeville ...

soundcloud.com/harrie-hq/a-...

I'm not stupid, I'm not out here trying to win over people who already won't like me anyway. But is it such a crime to want to create QUALITY music for MY people? Because they've got to be out there - people who also care about skill and craftsmanship and eloquence - in spite of how isolated I feel.

I think people who tell me "write what you want to write! fuck what other people think!" massively underestimate how misanthropic I already am.

Man: *pulls a knife*

Me: *kicks him in the balls*

Man: Geeze, no need to be so angry, you bitch!

Men should NOT go to therapy. It just gives them language they can weaponize against women. "Don't internalize everything. Why are you so aggressive? Why can't we have a civil conversation? You're being highly reactive."

Well, maybe stay out of my replies with your mansplaining in the first place.

Now I just have to sit down at the piano and make it happen... 😒

I think I can still use a lot of my original melody... not starting from zero... just gussyin' it up. 😅

#songwriting

Oh my GAWD. You sit on an almost-finished #song for YEARS and you keep poking at it but you know it's still Missing Something then one night you add one little tag and SUDDENLY you can hear the whole thing in a slow shuffle instead of a sludgey straight 4/4. In the words of Lucy, "THAT'S IT!!!!!"