kicking around a group rp idea for a while (no deadlock knowledge required, just insp)

it's unreasonable how much i just wanna play in a world like deadlock's

man i want an artrp so bad. need insp. need other artsts by my side doing things with me. ya know what i mean?

/guy who's gotten a lot of Alien Stage merch outta nowhere recently.

but also Ivan's draw to Till is essential to the understanding of selfishness with love that the series brings forward as a theme. they aren't good for each other, they'll never actually find something mutual, and that's the point

I'm an Ivan fan but not an ivantill fan ya know ya know

in a perfect universe of fluffy romance Ivan would be with a guy happy to take on all his emotions and baggage and it is fundamentally mischaracterising Till to imagine him in that role

one of my favourite cats from the shelter passed away last night

he was in foster care, so he was comfy and loved, but yeah

rip PC. love you buddy

life sucks. download the 'new' version of a game you played 17 years ago which is exactly the same with new questionably legally acquired songs in it

also hot take but vocaloid uses the worst fucking sample song for their website what is dreams make waves

getting a dropout subscription after watching too many short segments on various short form video platforms is kinda a trip. What do you mean Ify wasn't always the host of Um Actually huh

real talk i kinda want an ita bag but to fill it with art I've commissioned to fit a colour scheme

like obviously i'd let the artist know that I'd be putting it in a bag/making buttons only for myself of the art before confirming commission but....

it seems fun ya know

and the final chorus changing it "I welcome death with" feels like it's saying the same thing as the original chorus. they were always welcoming death. this is why it deserved such dramatic and cohesive instrumentation backing it

i've been really vibing with as the world caves in recently

i feel like the triplets on "I watch TV with" are so fucking good. like the whole composition coming together for what is- essentially -the most mundane activity in this context

update is he's already on it

wait this is so cool tho

need kira to add this to the docs

i'll never get over abrams deadlock tail honestly

physical lifeline is that I'm off for a week after today

my mental lifeline rn is that my friend and I have picked up talking about a project again so I have a responding creative partner for the moment

conned my mum into giving me a lift to the shelter (broke down crying)

I still wanna be there. I'm still needed. but I'm so worn out it's crazy.

I both feel on the verge of a mental break and actively in one

why the second guy look like they deepfaked john wolfe into this

victor deadlock's springy knees

turns out friends.... forgive you when you do dumb shit sometimes...

lovely lovely~

Thank you for playing with my old person, everyone!

i appreciate the support but i'm too afraid of being known to be posting on a public platform

i need someone i know to play love eternal so i can dump my narrative thoughts of them

also kirill senzu but for model updates honestly

back modding once more

valve GOTTA hire basilisken and DragonRollZ. like there's so many good model mods but i really think those two have such an eye for what would work for official cosmetics

anyone else thinks of the silent hill 3 birthday phone call sometimes? like who is this diva? no whoeverYOUare!