To be clear, I don't want you to finance me in any way, I do not want to live on others.
I'll try to hold my own and get help through the traditional ways, and when I'll start working again, I'll try contacting the NHS for mental help as well.

I've never had the strength to show this publicly to friends and mutuals, barely even to my own family.
But I'm on the brink of falling apart.
So, if any of you can help me out in any way, especially just checking out every now and then so I won't feel alone, I'll be greatfull for life.

I'm at the point where I have no idea if I can afford my rent, eat like a normal person, and ultimately enjoy my hobbies.
It's even harder with the thought of the fact that I can't easily return to my parents as I'm in a whole different country now.

I sadly announce that I'm taking a break from Pokémon.
I've reached the point that I can't afford to go to events, and I'm struggling very bad financially.
I'm living on pocket money from anything that I can make a profit on, waiting for responses from job applications.

a gray and white cat is standing in front of a yellow door . Alt: a gray and white cat is standing in front of a yellow door .

The job interview today went well, I should get an answer by the end of the weekend.
So, I might also stream tomorrow!
Would love to see you then.

The Pokémon Center in Pokémon Scarlet congratulate me for a happy birthday

Shiny Grookey

Summary of the shiny Grookey with the destiny mark

No Beldum for my birthday? No problem.
Last chance, destiny mark shiny Grookey to the rescue!
Why I couldn't get one marked Beldum all day and the monke took 1 minute?!

Thank you for the good time and all the wishes today on my birthday!
The destiny mark shiny Beldum has yet to come home, but I'll try before it turns to midnight to get one.
About more streams, will see after my job interview tomorrow, I hope to catch you at the weekend!

Twitch Twitch is the world

I'm live on Twitch, come hang out! www.twitch.tv/Grantmander?...

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Well, it's my birthday today!
What am I going to do?
I'll be testing out a stream setup (I haven't been streaming for more than a year) and will hunt for a jumbo shiny destiny mark Beldum.
Hope that it'll go smoothly, and hey, maybe it will open a door for me to a slow return.

Charmander

Grantmander's avatar

Soon (?)

twitch.tv/grantmander

Not me being in Copenhagen for the weekend, enjoying my time by wasting too much money that I can not afford wasting 🙃
(Gonna try and hold myself from buying LEGO at the LEGO store while walking towards a local bakery)

Today was a very emotional day for me.
Left my country for a new journey!
I am currently staying at a close friend's flat in Berlin until the actual move happens in November after Gdańsk regionals.

Let's see where it goes!
#newjourney

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If you haven't guessed yet

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Friends, should I post here some clips of me singing every once in a while?
I have not sang for a long time even though I was semi-professional.

Hey new here I'm Grant!

Me (Grant)

Me (Grant) during a VGC event

Hi!
Since it's a whole new clean start, let me introduce myself.
My name is Grant, I'm 24 yo (turning 25 next month), and I'm a big Pokémon nerd.
I'm a VGC player and a shiny hunter at the path for a living form dex, 1049/1431 different species, 495/1377 different shinies.