Every. Bloody. Time. I get a new glasses prescription, I spend the first handful of days in the new specs worried they got it wrong because it feels so weird in the adjustment.

*Shorsey voice* So dumb!

I don't understand why you can tell me something like wombats have square poop, or the correct pronunciation of axolotl and I'll remember that forever.

But tell me that SSH is port 22 and it takes me approximately a billion tries to remember that.

Also I hate that ports have to be memorised […]

I've finally had to schedule my exam* before the voucher expires. 10 April. The second hardest thing right now is getting numbers to stick in my head.

The first hardest is dealing with the shouty guy in my head screaming about how I'm going to fail anyway, so why am I even bothering.

*CompTIA […]

I often check up on myself by seeing how my gait looks when I'm caught on the garage cam.

I look much more steady and stable today than yesterday.

I remain forever salty that smart speakers can't also be simply used as a Bluetooth speaker.

[I'm kind of having a bad year so far. (Meds, pain, stress mentions)]

Returned the Duloxetine to the mix and gonna just leave it there till the other shit settles. Can't hurt. I didn't remove it for any adverse affects, just doc and I agreed to try removing as it didn't seem to be necessary […]

[I'm kind of having a bad year so far. (Meds, pain, stress mentions)]

I think I'm going to add duloxetine back in for now. Seems just needlessly pigheaded not to just do so for the duration of the current bullshit

[I'm kind of having a bad year so far. (Meds, pain, stress mentions)]

I cannot fully get over this pain/inflammation flare because I have entirely lost my chill. I am angry, stressed out, frazzled, etc.

I don't want this to be just, "oh hey, you needed the duloxetine after all!" because there […]

A reusable shopping bag containing sandwich zippy bags of Tim's All Dressed chips, and smaller zippy bags of flamin hot dill pickle cheetoes

My hand inside the larger bag, grabbing one of the little bags with cheetoes in for scale

Today in being nice to future!me.

Turned regular bags of snacks into reasonable bags of snacks

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Round pink sticker with two of the IKEA Blahaj sharks sharing a laptop, and text on it reads: Friend of Blahaj

Found the best one so far!

This is surely a "Friend of Dorothy" but trans take, yeah?

Torso of a person with medium boobs and round belly wearing a dark grey tank with PRIDE embroidered and printed in rainbow. A b-sides badge hangs around their neck with both they/them and she/her pins on the lanyard and a sticker of a nautical star in trans colours stuck on badge beneath logo

Same view as previous photo but with the badge flipped around to show it has three stickers on that side. One that's a little octopus with bubble letters saying TRANS PRIDE with trans pride stripes, a sticker for Sasha the flamingo.xyz which is a flamingo in a hoodie using a laptop with rainbow colours behind. And the alternate b-sides logo sticker

#bsidesseattle2026

Whomstever put a bunch of trans stickers on the upstairs table, ILY! It took me a hell of a time to get the backs off to find the sticky to the point I was beginning to doubt they were stickers. Likely user error, on my part, though.

Shoot like a cannonball
Fuck like an animal
Breathe in your love through my lungs
Like an addict does

#lyrics

I love
LOVE LOVE LOVE
walking out of a PT session feeling more stable, more steady, and stronger than when I walked into it

Wouldn't recommend cross stitching on Oxy though.

Spent as much time taking out wrong stitches as I did doing it correctly

Ahaha, oops.

Not me just walking around naked in front of an uncovered window forgetting I'm in a town and NOT in my bedroom in a rural area.

(not even bothering with the (cont.) now)

I get real bloody frustrated with kid from a petty place of, WELL OBVIOUSLY my reactions were REASONABLE given my situation of strict religious subculture, too many extracurriculars, stress/trauma from abuse from authority figures outside my family but […]

And also ...

Currently watching the eldest child act exactly like I did, but in response to reasonable restrictions and expectations.

I couldn't even protect them from the same thing because it didn't come even come from a hyper-regimented, strict, and unreasonably sheltered place.

I didn't […]

But, really, I'm not sure that kid!me having more of an understanding that my mum was just taking her shit out on me, would have made it any better to know it wasn't REALLY about me. Then I'd just have issues from being her emotional punching bag instead of issues about never being good enough […]

As such, she was hyper critical and held us to very high, often impossible standards, as kids. Ostensibly to try to teach us how to do difficult things, and claiming that's how we treated ourselves so she was "just helping", but has repeatedly admitted, and apologised for a chunk of it having […]

Told my mother I'm enjoying a silly mobile game she mentioned, but that I wish it were more challenging, provoked a reaction that I wish I had understood when I was a kid.

She's deeply insecure about her intelligence. She was a solid B/low A student, but she busted her ass to do so, affecting […]

Still a bit pleasantly muddlebrained

I spent the day a little high, and had my resident nurse gently pull on my leg.

Which is to say, my back is feeling better.

I've been sleeping with these
I've been sleeping with these thoughts, man
I've been contemplating singing them

#lyrics

Stand up
Catch fire
With me

#lyrics

But hey! I rode my bike today. Not very long but it was glorious

I've been on the edge of screaming and punching something for the last 24 hours.

For about a week my Google home has lost my smart lights (again) and thinks they're disconnected when they aren't, and I haven't been able to fix it again yet.

And since yesterday my fitbit is constantly turning […]

Every time I have to deal with something like a significant medication gap, breakthrough pain, or a flare up of any of my various bodily fuckeries ... I am genuinely fucking baffled at how I even survived through the worst of things before regular, appropriate treatment.

I wrenched my back […]

Vanity has been my undoing, today. I grabbed the groceries from the porch too quickly in order to prevent the doorbell cam from seeing my balding dome. Which subsequently caused my to wrench the worse side of my lower back rather badly.

CURSES!