Cherish the trust people place in you.

Tomorrow, it might be all we have.

I don't know.

Don't read too deeply here.

Sometimes, my life feels like a twisting of an old adage;

"Light a man a fire, and he'll be warm for the night. Light a man on fire, and you'll both be warm for the rest of his life."

I just needed to get the thoughts out of my head.

Maybe I don't even want to be better.

And if there isn't enough care for everyone,
Shouldn't someone who can live without it, abstain for those whom might not?

If the kindest thing I can do is to suffer in silence,
Is it okay to be loud and angry about it?

If you've read all of this, I'm sorry. And thank you. I don't need encouragement or kind words, or anything like that.

I like math. Statistics. Probabilities.

And it's just... mathematically, I'm pretty sure I'm a waste of time. I don't have any confidence in a return on investment in me.

Right now, I'm okay. Not good, not happy. But okay. I'm not in any physical danger, I'm not spiraling. I'm just not getting better.

I don't know that I will get better.

I can't want it for myself.

The world's still going to be here, still turning, tomorrow.

I *want* to talk to someone. To unpack a lot of unhealthy thoughts and feelings in a safe and productive environment.

But I know there isn't enough care to provide for everyone who needs it. There isn't enough time or money to save all the broken, damaged people out here.

Confession:

One of the reasons I'm not in therapy is process to get there.

I mean, I'm broke. So I can't afford private care. There is a provincial mental health program, but, there are so many barriers that resources must be limited.

And I don't want to save myself at the expense of others.

Terraria Tuesday is back! Playing with Demo and @hunter3001.bsky.social over on my twitch. (art also done by Hunter!)

www.twitch.tv/belladwitch

#ContextIsForTheWeak

I have been distant,
This last little while.

Our dynamic was simple. I stayed out of your way, you called when you needed me.

But you never needed me to listen. To tell you of my life. Never needed me to know yours.

Then you moved, and stopped calling.

And I stopped listening.

The same people who tell you
"Suffering Builds Character,"

Are still building a world
Where their own children might be ignorant of it.

In addition to our Stardew Shenanigans, Demo @belladwitch.bsky.social and I also spend most Tuesday evenings in two-dimensions! It's honestly one of the highlights of my week, and it could be one of yours, too!

(This one starts right about 8:00pm, eastern.)

Well Terraria was canceled but still had a good Palworld Stream with @hunter3001.bsky.social. Thank you @xanderturing.bsky.social for the raid, and I passed it on to @gnarlyneonsmilodon.bsky.social Go check out those cool people! See y'all tomorrow!

If a company truly believed in it's A.I. Offerings,

They'd make sure you had an easy way to turn it off.

Saturday, around 10:00pm Eastern, @woxli.bsky.social , @belladwitch.bsky.social , our good friend Demogarose and of course your friendly neighborhood sleep paralysis demon have been enjoying cozy farm vibes in Co-Op Stardew Valley.

Come join us while we try not to talk about Minotaurs? 🤫

The Ship of Theseus isn't the wood, or the nails, or the sails.

It's the shape of a thing.

And if you rebuilt it a thousand times, it would inevitably change with every iteration. You can either commit to keeping it as similar as possible, or,

You can try to make it better.

Hang in there.

TheRealHunter3001 - Twitch Radio Hunter: On Days Like These, Kids Like You...

I'm not asking you to take time out of your day to hang out with me on Twitch while I draw or game. Goodness knows there are better things to do with your attention.

But I *am* asking, if I *were* asking, would you? What kind of livestreams do you watch?

www.twitch.tv/therealhunte...

Happy #internationalwomensday!

QRP with how you draw women!

I really should practice feminine figure drawing more. I'll have to make a point of it.

I don't know if I ever actually posted this on Bluesky. I did this one a while ago.

Do you want to know the biggest reason they want to get rid of artists, writers and programmers?

Because an algorithm can't own the copyright. Can't hold the patent, or Trademark.

But the company that owns the algorithm can.

"You will own nothing, and pay monthly for the privilege."

Fastest way to get me to follow you?

Post your work in progress.

Post your practice art.

Post the process.

'Cause A.I. can't.

Drop Something Red?

I can do that.

In a time of destruction, create something. Says Skeletor thankful he can create memes for you these trying times.

Ye Wielders of Creation, Grant Unto Us Thine Stars
(Artist, Quote with your Night Art~ <3)

It isn't my best work, but every experiment has been another step forward.

It takes a particular kind of person

To be proud

Of failure to show mercy.

Even to the Devil.

It isn't what I'd call "finished," but I'll probably get distracted and make something else before I never go back to it, so I'll just leave this here...