my response regarding everything

i was reccomended by peers to make it public

i know i repeat myself a lot but i have to stress, im not doubling down and im taking full accountability for my general shittiness that the response entails.

please read the entire thing.

i wish everything was back to normal

i wish i was honest i wish i still had my partners i wish i still had my closest friends

i deserve this but i dont want to survive

i think if you try to defend me by defending the parts i condemn and regret doing and trying to get help from you are not defending me

im completely hospitalized

i grew up with them jars i knew them when i was 15

please dont say that to them they mean so much to me

but now its time to die

im grateful for the memories, laughter, and moments i was there to support you guys

i will forever be grateful and i am not going to be vindictive of it

i understand if you have no faith in me anymore, i deserve this

im not talking about my followers if you're reading this and know who you are. yeah you're one of them

i love you guys even if you dont want me around anymore, i wish this couldve ended differently

i still love you

these were people i was friends with for 6+ years

waiting room, but that doesnt mean anything

please tell me i cant fix things because its too late. no matter how much i want to

how should i kill myself

please just how do you want me to end this

all my closest friends want me dead now

everyone is gone, it was my own doing

i dont want to survive this i dont i cant live

again give me suggestions and ill do it

unpostponed

guess whos going to the mental ward lmao

i have to do it, immgoing to do it this friday

im fucking disgusting

they cut me off completely and want to stay away forever

theres no positives to live for

stop trying to stop it, ive set my mind