I gotta hang out with friend todayyy heheh ngl though they are SO fuckijg triggering. They are literally so small. Like not like skinny like just small. Like yeah they’re thin but they are just really small?? Idk how to explain it but like being side by side I like HUGE!!

Yall not to be an add or anythinggg but I genuinely recommend getting the app ZOZOFIT it has REALLY helped me see the difference in my before and after! The first scan was before I started losing the the second was from today

Hehe thank you!! Ik I lover her so much thank you😔🫶

Also!!! I think sometime this week I’m going to donate blood! I wanna start giving more to my community especially during these hard times plus it burns 500-650cals and helps improve your metabolism 🫣
I might start going once-twice a month!!

I’m slowly but starting to get myself back. I went for a 6mil walk this morning, went shopping brought my sweet girl with me hehe, showered, cleaned my room a bit and am picking up a new desk tmrw!! Also saw these very pretty mushrooms!!

Also cat and just a photo I liked :3

This weight loss the past couple months has been BRUTALLY slow. Please send motivation UGH 😔

I’ve become so numb… it feels like it did with my ex and it’s scary.. cause my partner is the one that got me out of that and now they’ve gotten me into it so much worse.. idk what to do.. thanks sorry for being a lot on the time line lol i just had to say it somewhere ig

My asking and even then it’s a big deal… it’ll feel like I’m bothering them… being an issue…but with them it feels so effortless.. I can be myself and talk and they’ll sit and listen… my partner interrupts me, talks over me, controls the situation, points the finger.. I just can’t speak anymore..

The times I’m the happiest are when I’m with my friend and it sucks.. they’re so sweet and kind and loving to me, the day and do things no one has genuinely done before and it hurts to know that someone I’ve been with gave everything too for 3 years can’t even do one of those things without

At a point I doo too.. but I’m so scared.. I’m sis cared to lose the one constant I’ve had for 3 years now..I’m scared of who I’ll become. If I lose the people I’ve met.. if I end up all alone.. I’m so scared. I feel like such a terrible person for all of this but I don’t know what to do..

I genuinely feel like nothing I say or do matters anymore. They only see the bad and it feels like I’m walking on egg shells constantly..I have no one to go to or talk too cause everyone is going through their own things and I don’t want to feel like a bother.. I can feel they want to leave

Pointless.. I’ve become numb to everything, I wake up work care for them and then I’m in the wrong every time..I’m really struggling with my mental health and I just on’t know what to do anymore…they look at me with so much disgust and distain and it hurts.. they hate me…

I’ve stopped talking to them cause apparently I “talk about myself too much” and I “don’t listen to them”.. this really really hurt. I put so much effort into being a partner that always listens but my thoughts my pain my hurt doesn’t matter.. so I’ve stopped… that made things worse but it feels so

An experience my partner what’s nothing to do with… they hate it they hate the person I’ve become, they hate that I don’t always want to be with them and want to hang out with my friends.. they hate it makes me to tired to give them the energy they want from me..

It’s been a really hard couple months with this new job.. my job is amazing I love working here and I love all of the people I’ve met and have made some really cool close friends. I’ve felt more myself than I have in a long time and it’s just been such an amazing experience..

TW BC!!

Sighhh been awhile thought I’d give an updateeee!! Currently am 146! The smallest I’ve weighed since I was a child! Still fat asf but what can you do but keep moving right!:)

Damn. It’s been a crazy busy month yallll anywayyy how’s everyone doinggg?

I’ve been so bloated recently and I hate it buttt I also know it’s because I’ve been eating and not eating good food.. I’ve been getting back into my old habits and it is SO HARD to break them. Doesn’t help I’m constant surrounded by food and yummy drinks at work:((

Mmm what should I drawww any ideas??

Guys it’s been a long week:((( I’ve struggled with eating to much a few days, but also I’m down and probably the smallest I’ve been since like middle school and yet I’m still a fat whale and I’m so sad :( I feel like I’ve gained but the scale doesn’t show it so I don’t understand that either ughh

When my bf is out and about he’ll randomly send me photos of strangers and just caption it “Thinspo” or “ed core” 😭 it’s so silly but sad to me like damn he really think of me everytime he sees that now 😭

My bf just told me I looked like a butch when we first met… NOTHING IS WRONG WITH LOOKIJG LIKE A BUTCH BUT THAT WAS N O T THE LOOK I WAS TRYING TO GO FOR AT ALL. I was wanting to give mentally unstable twink boy….:(((

Ohhh guys I regret to inform that I smoked a drunk cigi😔 and have thought about that cigarette since… UGHHHH KILL MEEE I CANT DO THSI AGAIN

Oh tonight I’m going to hang out with a few coworkers and I’m exciteddddd BUT!! My coworker is cookingggg baked potato soup! Sooo I’m hoping it won’t be too terrible on calls since I’ve seen it can kinda be anywhere from 220-360. But most were from restaurants sooo unsure tbh.

I really hate eating. Like I genuinely hate it so much it’s so gross and disgusting. I don’t understand how I continue to kinda lose when I eat in grateful but confused. Sighhh

Ummmmi just found out my new coworker is an ed specialist/ therapist…..😭😭

Ahhh thank you!!! I completely read CG wrong at first lol but thank you Bunny hehe

Been so longggg my fault 😖
Anywayyy I got the job! I love it!!! It’s so much fun and I’ve made friends and they’re all so funny and sweet heheh!!