yeah ; ;
thanks man

the idea is that before reaching out I have to have my feelings sorted first so that they don't turn into emotional punching bags
but that also feels so fucked up like
why can't I express myself authentically
why do I have to have everything tied neatly with a bow all the goddamn time
yk?

yeah... but unfortunately I am (evidently) going about it Wrong™️and just hurting people when clawing for help and thus I have been spiraling 🙃

（妄想）

ストレス、解散！

ス・ト・レ・ス

【作業配信】テレワークストリーム【喋りなし】 post vacation blues 😔

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working with post vacay blues 😞
#keyboardasmr #workfromhome #テレワーク #作業配信

idk as of late I've found myself feeling more stress at the obligation of having to reply to messages except for like mostly local irls so maybe it's a sign lol

lowkey maybe I go on an sns cleanse
IG is ok but I kinda stopped responding to messages lol
I stayed off twt almost entirely while away
and I survived
tho also it only worked bc we had things to do and see
whereas here while working life is comparatively bland

tyy
the jp withdrawals are hitting hard ; u ;

I've returned

【作業配信】テレワークストリーム【喋りなし】 it's the final countdown 🚨🚨🚨

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here we go again 🤪

【作業配信】テレワークストリーム【喋りなし】 つづく…

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help I have so much work to do and so little time left

#ambientnoise
#workfromhome
#telework
#keyboardasmr

【作業配信】テレワークストリーム【喋りなし】 だぁずぅげぇでぇぇぇぇ😭😭😭

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だぁずぅげぇでぇぇぇぇ😭😭😭

idk what this will amount to HAHA but figured it's worth a shot

【作業配信】テレワークストリーム【喋りなし】 だずげでぇぇぇ😭😭

だずげでぇぇぇ😭😭
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#ambientnoise
#workfromhome
#telework
#keyboardasmr

nande watashi no douryoku wa tarinai no

jibun de kirai

shinitai

jinsei tsurai

daijoubu janai

wow!

alive

ohhhhhh!! yeah the collabs and exchanges between dropout and smosh have been fun too!

WAIT
do you also watch dropout omg

happy belated chrysler

yeah ofc
it's hard to shake the fear tho when that's p much how society tells you to behave
you have to be nice and you have to give everyone the time of day
even moreso if that's how home life is too (looks at self with mom haha...)
hopefully most people figure it out later on in adult life tho

fear is that u get accused of or attacked for not being nice (':

LOL yes