I'm so sick and drugged up that I feel like my entire system turned into a puddle of each other

#DID #DIDSYSTEM #idontrememberthehashtags #andimtoosicktofigurethemout

My life is a series of domino effects that occasionally knock over a jenga tower that sets off more domino effects

Having D.I.D. is letting your alters hit the penjamin and immediately regretting your decisions because they can leave you to deal with the coughing fit on your own

You ever think Nostradamus wasnt a prophet and was just an autistic man with really good pattern recognition and wrote about it?

What do we gotta do to get G.I. Robot built? We gotta get a Kickstarter going or something cause I'm too American for the amount of Nazi shit going on

it feels like my brain just jingles keys at me to make me avoid thinking about my trauma

Not enough people have thought about the fact that it was normal to drink cocaine. It was in our sodas barely 100 years ago. Humans have been on so many drugs for so long, and I think that's why humanity is finally crashing out

We aren't their psychiatrists and it is dangerous to randomly throw around diagnosis for celebrities and also sometimes people are just evil and it has nothing to do with any mental illness. Being mentally ill doesn't make you evil and evil isn't an illness. It's a choice.

My heart always breaks when I find out someone has DID but the more I can learn about DID the more we can help people with it and I'm fascinated to see how many people I can help

As someone with DID I am fascinated by DID itself in the sense of I want to know why the brain chose to survive this way so I can better understand how to survive with it

I'm gonna start mapping our my grocery store trips. You wanna play games mother fuckers??? We can play games mother fuckers!! Imma start using my own monkey brain psychology to make other people want to spend less!!

I just learned that grocery stores make it harder to see the signs that tell you what's in each aisle so that you spend more time looking around the store which makes you more likely to see something your monkey brain wants and the lengths they go to just to sell us more things infuriates me

A.I. is just photoshop if you attached Google to it

It's comforting to know that I haven't made it all up

It's heartbreaking to know I've been traumatized since such a young age

There is truly something heartbreakingly comforting about having a memory that makes you go "wow.... I've always had D.I.D."

#did #didsystem

Update: everything was not OK

Me: everything is OK. You're just being mentally ill.

Also me: I don't trust you! You're mentally ill!

I've never felt so many ages at once

#did #didsystem

My autism and my OCD are in a constant state of chess

I'm starting to feel like my parents have a 6th sense and can tell when I'm processing how they traumatized me and how angry I am at them for it because THAT'S WHEN THEY TEXT ME!!!!!

The D.I.D. be D.I.D-ing

#did #didsystem

I'm so mad at how inefficient my mental illnesses are

Don't stress about your fears when you have pleasures to enjoy

The amount of times I've asked for a plain burger only to be served Bubble Bass' order from SpongeBob makes me understand why Ultron wanted to take us all out

When you're filling out a form and it asks you your gender but there's WAY too many alters active

#did #didsystem

Ordering delivery to your house is worth $30 because taking care of your health is worth $30

Absolutely FURIOUS with my old therapist
Realized she caused an alter that DESPERATELY needed help to just feel like a burden and re triggered all his childhood trauma and he just hid it all BECAUSE SHE KEPT TELLING US TO NOT TRUST HIM!!!
I'm so fucking livid
#did #didsystem

My brain is controlled by the equivalent of a depressed, mute, pit bull
Of course I have issues

#did #didsystem

I will greet The Reaper like an old friend
He will greet me like someone that owes him $5

:3