Erin (character, unown gijinka, they/them pronouns) sitting with their eyes closed.

this letter....

(yes i used a meme as a reference)

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#digitalart #art #oc #pokegijinka #erin #unown #unowngijinka

Y'all I work in wildfire and can only call and scream at my useless rep so many times.

Please do me a solid and threaten the comfort and security of yours over this. Thank you.

The same cassowary dad sculpture as the original post but now complete with a shiny layer of varnish.

The cassowary chick on its own in the palm of my hand, about the size of or an olive.

Different angle of cassowary dad.

Cassowary dad now glazed and glamorous.

#makinpics Vigil & Cacofony

Invest in your friends’ OCs. It’s like being in a fandom, except you get the benefit of having the inside scoop, too.

Yes, show me the “bad” sketch, pitch me the shower thought… I love it.

photo showing the rescuers saving the dog, next to the statue commemorating them

closeup on the base of the statue, showing a dog and a man in a ball cap

the top of the statue, where the person at the top of the slope has his hand outstretched so the viewer can "help" pull him up

in 2016 a group of strangers in Kazakhstan saved a dog from drowning by forming a human chain to reach him. they just unveiled a statue commemorating the event and I'm genuinely about to start sobbing

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youtube recommending me a video called "How to Make OCs People Care About" is a bit funny given my recent bout of my brain biting its own tail and eating itself irt ocs

a pawn could watch their spouse get murdered in front of them and would be just as upset about That as they are about like. wearing clothes with holes in them. u really have to hope and pray the events of the game can help contextualize a relationship in other ways and u better bring ur imagination

very fun game and i do love it but if you are craving Characters it's not good for that At All because ultimately they are pawns on a chess board that the game fully expects will die Very Soon at any given moment so interpersonal relationships are as shallow as possible

what i really need is to play sims, as that is the true emotional replacement for RP...but sims is currently broken and awaiting a hotfix....i have rimworld but relationships and interactions in rw are far more hollow even with a heavily modded game and i am at a lack of ideas for a run anyway.

anyway. i vanish and forget bluesky exists again after dumping art where i know (thankfully) the least amount of eyes will be on it

creating for an audience is a tar pit don't do it (and yet this is effectively what i'm talking about, being able to create for an audience to replace the more intimate connections i'd gotten used to back when i had spaces to RP in)

i don't really have rp outlets anymore which is sad but ultimately It Happens, but i wish i could write better or draw more to at least be able to post more so i could feel it more worth it to share about stuff more in-depth and to try to learn to be more comfortable creating alone

i know it's sometimes a self-fulfilling prophecy to say you are unhappy with the things you create (as it can taint the enjoyment others might've otherwise had without the Ho-Hum commentary) but Ho-Hum....i wish i had better outlets

but i feel like if i Could do that i could talk about my characters and have it be something a bit more presentable to others because it wouldn't need context, it would not need me to share my atrocious world-building (Huge Lack Thereof) and would still have capacity to be enjoyable

alternatively i wish i could make OCs FOR something. like, fan characters or something within existing media that can interact with Canonical Characters in media. but i absolutely Cannot Do That. i hate doing that, even. i don't want to make anyone to 'meet' anyone from canon or even Touch canon.

and so now having ocs that are just in my own sandbox in my own corner just makes me kick the dirt whenever i think about them at all. these are no longer my touys to play with. they are those anime figurines i just put on my shelf and never touch again.

i'm a bit spoiled in that my start to making OCs was for rp things (i had a friend irl and we'd pass a notebook back and forth each day at school where we'd basically do paragraph rp but much longer form and doing one entry a day, like a collab'd story)

"i won't talk about them" [talks]

i do wish i had an outlet for ocs again, like rp stuff or just...Anything. i think it'd make having them feel a lot less embarrassing. for now it's like. i have ocs. they're in my head &i have nothing to show for it. they're just There. you see them too, sometimes.

she gets the other guy killed so this ain't about him

(they're a pair of lovers but from two entirely different branched timelines where the version of their respective partners in Their timeline died so they're kind of lovers who are also strangers. love-hate. things are exceedingly complicated.)

bonus other old art ft semi that i wasn't really happy with but in the effort of trying to share art sometimes (this was in trying to work out her design for the bad timeline stuff, originally she was going to have longer hair and i do think her hair can ultimately just change in length)

small snippet of present timeline semi for posterity &the oldest of all art (i think at least) (this is when she goth'd up her outfits a Little bit because she realized people are in fact capable of dying &everyone she loves will in fact die someday and leave her behind but she still had her Colors)

art that's even older than the other 2..this was the original design i had for semi in the bad timeline &while i do still like her here i ultimately decided to honor her peppy sparkledog essence from her good timeline self &settled on the design in the first post (even if the pep becomes a delusion)

((and hoping i can push myself into enjoying my ocs again so i can get into doing more art somehow))

hastily deletes further explanation because my current confidence in my ocs and art Ain't Like That right now (hence older art because Newer art hasn't been happening) and i will embarrass myself if i say one word too much (maybe someday i can get better with that again)

bits of old art (the second is much older, first is from a couple months ago) of characters no one knows but who are from within the same world (semi/semblance is the character in the first, syrah and sy [same person but from present and future timelines] are the two in the second)

通勤路の公園を小走り中のハクセキレイ

通勤路の公園で立ち止まったハクセキレイ

通勤路の公園の地表を見つめるハクセキレイ

通勤路の公園で、ぼんやり写ったハクセキレイ。 疲弊した心と目に優しい映像（のつもり）

ときに、走っても立ち止まってもよいし、うつむいたってよい

very late reply (sorry) but wanted to say thank you for reaching out...things have still been really difficult, but i do hope that can someday prove to be true, that people are out... (in particular in irl spaces)