When I was leaving one of the younger baby goth teens yelled that they loved my hair 🥹🥹

Okay I went in, ordered my coffee, peeked around the small shop that was her bedroom, and now am on the lil deck and it's somehow warmer here and its so nice but I def didnt feel comfy being inside long

I wasssss gonna sit on swings but Ill stay at ma bench and table

Im in the park crossed from the café just staring at it

Annnnnd now theres children as I write this and I feel like I shoulsnt be vaping here

I DO wish I had brought a light jacket cause it is a liiiiiittle chilly

My back is absolutely KILLING me and its def bc I fucked it lifting shit yesterday

Theres a big group of complaints rn at work (from the same group of ppl), and there was only 3 of us working and I stg I dont recall them, or having any convo that couls go the way they saw it, but I'm somehow TERRIFIED it was me????? Tho I have next to 0 complaints in several years

I have very vauge memories that pop in about her and her family, but I have a feeling her or another elementary school friend/her family (banking more on the second one tbh) are maybe where I learned so much sexual shit?

So; I live outskirts, work in city, but went to most of my schools in one of the town nearby

Tmmr after my drs appointment I think Im gonna go by a café, that used to be the house of a (brief) childhood friends, and Im afraid of what it might unlock for me

Its foggy out but still so so nice

Just finished before I forget to post

😭😭 I'm so sorry that's happened to you omfg, it's infuriating how some people treat the disabled as if they aren't fuckin HUMAN

Ppl be WEIRD 🫠🫠 especially workin retail

I forgot thursday and yesterdays whoops

RIGHT 😭😭 I'm used to people touchimg my hair but they.... at least say something to me

That was pretty much my expression 😭 like I helped her husband find something, she just smiled, reached out and..... stroked my hair 😅😅 not a WORD. I just smiled, said I like your sweater and moved on bc wtf do you DO 😭😭

I..... had an old lady stroke my hair today. To be fair, I think she may have had some mental health issues, but it def startled me a bit 😅😅

"No need for a note, it was only one day" he says

Your response to me calling out was "seriously?"

Last time I was put out BY MY DR, yall retaliated by not schedualing me for 2 weeks, then when confronted, used the days I DIDNT have notes as reasoning.

Im giving yall a FUCKING note.

Bashed my arm a good bunch against the door, better than the alternative

Cleaned up a chunk of my room. I think I have to accept I wont pay off everything in time, but I can at least get everything else sorted

💛

Im just gonna try to go back to sleep I wanna throw up

It was only 2 marks, but I did cave to sh again

Im just gonna start trashing stuff. Not like it'll matter in less than a year anyway

She yelled back at me "how are you gonna live?" And I ALMOST said I wont

And then she lectures me MORE but this time about calling out

I CANT HELP IF I GET SICK. IVE BEEN WORKING THROUGH IT MOST TIMES. I CANT ALWAYS

Maybe I should just fucking quit

Mom comes down and starts off about calling out, then starts off about my room, telling me I have one week

Now I text my boss to call out and his reaponse is "seriously?"

What an awful start to today

Watched the local brats who've been terrorizing the liquor store next door. They've already been detained once for punching and cracking their window. Now just watched staff lock the doors (and have 4 customers outside waiting) bc they wouldn't leave