This is why I have chosen to leave for good. To let others heal from the mental pain I have caused. At the end of the day I'm an immature asshole who has a lot to learn and should be held accountable for my actions.

I bid thee farewell, and maybe one day I'll be a better person.

// . . . I've come to announce that I'm leaving bluesky rp for good.

I've been an absolute shitty person to be around and to those I have hurt, even as intentional as it was, I deeply apologize. Nothing will ever take away the words I said or the actions I did

I became what I dreaded, what I hated

// . . . I'm likely not gonna be available until after my brain mri.
I'm gonna try and figure out why my brain has been fuzzy since my fall

// Yeah I still can't figure it out. I don't have the energy or time to piece together the memories.

// Idk. My head just hurts. But I'm okay. Just fuzzy brain.

// Uhm. Don't expect much from me while I try to figured out some shit. Idk. All I can say is that I think my fall fucked me up more than thought. I think

[She's curled up on the couch, adjusting her vest]

[Shivering in a corner. Choosing to be away from everyone]

// I have her reactivated but.

I'm not gonna be on much, and will be highly selective. I need to focus more on school

Major development thing

* I did

// NOOOO NOT THEM

* Ah I was just thinking about how I missed you. I know I can't help it.

[She laughs nervously as she rubs the back of her head. She looked. . . Very different.]

[She jumps but she smiles widely]

* SUSIE! I missed you a lot!

* . . . Man I miss them. And I'm such a yearner.

[She's sitting at the entrance. Like she was waiting for something. But she didn't have her hopes up much.]

// I'm. . . Mentally not gonna be available for the next while

// We do. We really do

* That's the spirit! Self care is the best kind of care.

[She smiles at them]

* Of course. Many people think they're failing in life when they do nothing for a day. But they're not. They're getting the proper rest they need.

* Thank you. Um. All I can really say is that even though life really sucks, sometimes that best thing you can do is just survive another day, even if it means you do nothing. Sometimes doing nothing gives you the reset you need.

// I'm forever gonna be a Tamsie and Nuthatch defender for the rest of my life

// God when they finally meet again and Susie finds out

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⠀💭 ( tamara, yeah? she was always pretty nice to me when we crossed paths. one of the few people that wasn't scared of me. it was . . . kinda validating.

. . . i wonder where she is. i feel like i haven't seen her in a while. )
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// LOL

Felt. Especially when I finally get serious threads I become like an excited puppy

// Be like me and do it anyways. Then again I don't do much with my life lmao

// OOOOOO. I like this beat a lot

// OOP

I'd give it a listen. It scratches my autistic brain in a good way

// japanesecoffee

// Wait is it the song I'm thinking about that a lot of people have made animations to because I listen to it a lot because it fits Tamara.