"Why is it so hard to write?" Well gee maybe it has something to do with all the distractions you let yourself have? You have adhd fool. You can't leave shinies lying everywhere. - the brain's left hemisphere talking to the right that's morphed into a butterfly flitting everywhere.

I was mistaken for being 10 yrs younger. Glad the working out is, uh, working out.

Probably would've submitted it a week earlier if it weren't for that siraj business.

I am now fully convinced that Alhaitham submitted his resignation immediately after he had read all the classified documents and forbidden texts he cared to, or after confirming he would still have access to them after stepping down.

Also finally getting to the Knave's story quest (trying to clear the backlog), and uh... I can't find arlecchino menacing anymore after seeing her putting on cat ears. A bit of a shame that a lot of the intended tension is lost.

Just started on cyno's second story quest, and first, more domestic kaveh/alhaitham than I expected, but also... why am I not surprised that Alhaitham probably only accepted being temp Grand Sage because he could read all the forbidden/classified texts that way?

It just feels like admitting failure, having to take measures bc I recognize that being happy is hard when I'm not recognizing the good in my life.
And also the "get in touch with your feelings" stuff has always annoyed me... but dammit if i ain't out of touch with life atm.

I really hate that I'm going to do this, but i think I'm gonna do daily gratitudes from now on.
I want to learn how enjoy the little things in life, not wondering when I can enjoy bigger prizes or fixating on if I'm doing enough.

And if ryusuke ends up being the big bad I'll... I'll... I dunno what I'LL do, but Welt will have more ptsd and an even bigger guilt complex, and i will be slightly disappointed in the story direction.

I love nihilux i love nihilux i love nihilux.
Important things need to be said thrice!

Went on hoyolab for a minute, found immediate bickering that devolved into namecalling instantly, and backed out.
Imma just... hang out somewhere else. I only ever use it to input codes lol.

I absolutely love hoyo's butterfly motif dresses. It's so easy to make a gacha waifu look tacky in a butterfly dress, but aponia and castorice's 2 dresses are amazing.

Depression is hard... but I'm trying despite it for once.
Trying what? Hell if I know, but it's better than nothing.

I'm learning how to ride a bike, and can confirm all the reddit advice: it's all in the balance.

... Only just realized that, because I attribute everything to hormones or hay fever or whatever, I honestly could have just been sick these past few weeks and have had no idea.

Alright guess I'm not going on youtube the rest of this week. Not only is it unproductive for all the normal reasons, I am having like a bad mental health month, and it pushing videos I can't handle onto me is just ... no.
Anyway, there is life outside the screen and imma live it.

Why is it only when I'm trying to do a focused writing day that everyone suddenly needs to contact me?
My phone might as well be off the rest of the time.

Oh thank goodness, the words are wording again.

I'm glad I write, even if it's bad/inconsistent/whatever.
Can you imagine what an overactive imagination without an outlet would be like?
I'd be the most insufferable conspiracy theorist.

The only changes worth making are those that help you view yourself more positively.

Whether it's gender or any other aspect of your identity, do not make changes to yourself because you want to control how others view you. You can't; those that will be gracious will be gracious and those that won't will not no matter what you are/do.

Instead of a spouse, I got three more cats and a junimo hut for my stardew farm. I'm fine with this.

I wonder why depression hits like a truck mid-march. But imma go through the movements of living even if i feel like I'm puppeteering myself through life and wait it out.
April is so close after all...

Tbf, her initial impression is undoubtedly still bad to me, but the sentimentality towards family and the artist trance she gets into when she's out taking photos? That hits right.
She kind of gives me young adult slowly realizing high school/college glories mean sht vibes.

... Just realized that if I actually was a dude who moved to a farm in stardew valley, I'd probably be into Haley. What ... do I do with this information?

There are a lot of ways ads and marketing seek to manipulate us. I'm not well-versed in the psychology, but I bet anything that promises you'll feel like a millionaire has to be a scam.

Ahhh spring cleaning and official year goals starting ahh (panicking for no reason, and also 2 weeks late but who cares).

Just dropping a line so future me will have a record of having started and can't back out with flimsy excuses.

Whhhhy is every monthly worse than the laaaast
(this is not true, but let me be dramatic)

Imagine how boring (and dysfunctional) this world would be if I had to understand and like everything in it.

I still don't get self-shipping with characters, but who cares? Let me be confused and let the people who enjoy it enjoy it.