my partner told me that i look like a femcel :(

therapy again today . i hope i win this time

how do i get my girlfriend to stop keeping me up until 2 when i want to be asleep at like 10 ?

i miss working

how to cure a negative self-image

my therapist told me that i have internalized transphobia :(

i just think im uniquely hideous

the evangelion remakes were great . the first 55 minutes of the final one were absolutely 10/10

the ending was , once again , mid

3 years on estrogen in 3 days

feeling bad and dumb and stupid today and also anxious and regretful but also overwhelmed and completely defeated

i love getting called a shemale in the postgame chat , it makes the win more meaningful

how the fuck do people have time in the day

cooking mexican food tonight . my favorite to prepare

why did they have to destroy so many angels in the first place ?

im changing shape and it feels funny

finished evangelion last night

what a rip-off

so sick of doing school every day

it's gently raining outside :)

still so hard to conceptualize myself as a girl . like , in my heart of hearts i know that im really just an aberration

i fucking hate anime omg

im always covered in cuts and abrasions

just got done with therapy and apparently the VA has been lying to me about how much they can help with bottom surgery , which is great

turns out they actually *can* help and all that *I* have to do is to fill out *one* *single* *form*

haha wow glad that took 2 years of begging to uncover

therapy intake appointment in 2 hours

eef

3 weeks short of 3 years on HRT and literally nothing to show for it other than my new , shittier personality

need . . . healthcare . . . *dies*

living in mental agony again today

glad my brain makes at least 1 day a week completely miserable for no discernible reason

i need to upload another vlog soon . ever since i migrated from twitter i pretty much forgot about those

stay tuned

"you'll have time for fun when you're older" no i fucking won't you stupid bitch

feeling incredibly glupi norp today

i can already feel my brain swelling and my IQ increasing

two new fans arrived today and i could not be happier

very glad to not be sitting in stagnant air any longer