only other first responders can understand the need to pick up an OT shift to drown out the stress of your own life with the trauma of others 💔

#iam911

It's okay to choose you when others don't feel safe.

i kind of would start laughing. why are you walking like that lol , and why u in my room. and why am i seeing this

Where do you go when I close my eyes
What do you see looking back at me
Am I just a ghost just like you caught between the
seams of two intertwining melodies

A wrinkle in time
Take what is left of my life
Before you go show me what it‘s like
to finally know
The face behind the silhouette in this world I made
to be infinite
But within the expanse - I finally see
A world without you isn’t meant for me

Flicker like shadows dancing beyond the flames
Enchanting, mesmerized
Take what is left of my life
A wrinkle in time
Where do you go

Pull me into the pyre
Engulf me in flames
Captivate me
Eidolon
Gravity
Magnetic
Pull me toward my ecstasy

Flicker like shadows dancing beyond the flame
Captivate, hypnotized
By the fire in her eyes
You took me by surprise
And then you disappeared in the blink of an eye

We’re dancing like flames flickering in the night
We sway in time with the wind before melting away
You’re far from my reach but not far out of sight
You know the way to my heart but you just play
the strings again

If the past is just dust
Then the future could be our dream
If all we have is now; this eternity
Ignite my satisfaction
Engulf me

Captivate me
Become my escape
I can’t look away
You were my everything

LORNA SHORE - Pain Remains I: Dancing Like Flames (OFFICIAL VIDEO) YouTube video by Century Media Records

This got me thru so much in life. :3 been listening to this album for four years now.

youtu.be/JglOS8TRFp4?...

wish I could be held while I cry rn

:(

:( why can't I just turn feelings off

I'm okay. Just lots of stuff going on in life that's hard.

A little tired. A little silly. A little angry. And a lot of sad. It's just how it is sometimes.

:(

I'm kind of struggling to want to be around rn. :/ mental health fucking sucks

everyone else: "you're just not trying hard enough."

her: i'm trying.

why is her 100% never enough for others? it's fucking endless.

:(

she wants to be with God so much it hurts . she stays to listen to the prayers of others she doesn't know, while she puts prayers of her own on hold until she can see His face.

her spirit is hurting today. like bad. her heart hurts even though it's only supposed to be emotions. she tries so hard , but can somehow never be enough for what others need from her. she is really sad :(

:(

they named her angel
for choosing who would bleed
not for saving
but for deciding
every mercy was a blade
she had to turn on herself
and heaven stayed silent
while her wings learned the weight

:(

... angel ears 💔

nobody prepares you for the day, in your adult life, when you just wake up tired one day ... and then just like - stay that way forever.

you will survive, but you will become someone else.

No is a full sentence.