what i would give to be with her physically, to squeeze her as tight as i possibly can, to say so many things, to play games with her, watch her work, see our mutual friends, watch something together, various other things.....

this being about 3 different people doesnt help the gay yearning at all

remembering this account exists again

im not doing so hot chat but i have schoolwork to do and a song to make for wacca plus so i cant rrally pay attention to that rn

i am a bunny rabɓit 🐇

yes and yes

what then!!

question answered! no promises ill be back to normal in a reasonable amount of time but hey now i can get started

ANYWAY

i am. bnuby

🐇

i know this is asking a lot but i dont know what to do with myself and i hope you pressuring me about it will help make me figure it out

itd probably be best to talk to you directly about this but WOW i cannot bring myself to so if you see this and also know this is about you, please poke me about it so i know its ok to talk to you about it

oh god my last few posts here really have been about this one person whos also able to see this

uhhhhh hi there, i swear im normal usually i just have a lot of social anxiety, and as our relationship changed i got super scared i did something or didnt do enough

im likely being overdramatic and overthinking it all (a common theme of my existence) but i wonder

what happened? why dont we talk like we used to? did i do something? why am i now scared to call you things i used to freely?

i wonder if in another world it couldve turned out differently

i wonder what i couldve done then

im likely all out of options now, but if i could go back, how could i change things from ending up how they are now

i dont know what to do about it or if i should do anything about it

wanting to make an effort to get closer to someine but being unsure if the other person wants me to is one of the most splitting feelings

ill ask her later, if i get a response woohoo if i dont oh well default mode hasnt changed

i just want to know whats going on, i dont want to make her get closer again or anything, i just dont want to be clueless, i need to be told how people feel about me directly

i know i can just ask her, like shes still my friend and talks to me on occasiin, but with how little of that has been directly, im unsure if ill get an answer if i do

i may be overthinking things but i can help but think shes avoiding me in some form (unrelated to anybody im in a relationship with or any "situation" im in if any)

while my oersonak acct over on twt is slowly turning into weird trans girl freak account this account here on bsky will remain relatively safe

a moment of serenity of which i wonder how long itll last once again

forgot this existed hello

bwuh

kinda scared

yea i think shes kinda pretty

*falls over* *trips* *breaks the floor and falls to the next level* *bores a hold in the ground* *trips over the earth* *implodes* *explodes* *evaporates*

this is where i want to be for hours on end

in the back of a car with a black interior, driving on a rainy day, on street with minimal traffic as we pass by neon lights gleaming through the window refreacting off the raindrops, crystals embedded in slates of spotless glass, as slow, bassy soul music plays on the radio. not a word is said

im probably gonna keep my more personal thoughts over on the variant of this account on twitter for a bit but still