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everything i ate today. lazy chilaquiles, pho ga, carrot cake. ignore the emotional support rightwing podcast. saw stars yesterday, pretty cool. legs sore from trying to get in shape. happy springtime i guess

when no one will answer you and it gets dark

some yesterday foods. so happy with things lately but it terrifies me bc i feel like it all fall apart. whatever what can ya do right? i wanna live in bed, i dont like having a back injury, i want time to keep passing

things are LOOKING UP! i am TOO hopeful and TOO happy and this is WAY TOO good to be true! things will soon come crashing down! see you in a few weeks when it does! (i really hope it doesnt i cant stop smilin n shit im such a dumbass.) i want things to be good and happy waaah

incredibly suicidal lately, takes everything in me 2 not relapse. no one to talk to anymore. having to work everyday makes me wana die. it just never ends. im starving but dont wanna eat. the only person who sees me struggling also judges me so much that i cant talk to her ab anything. i ❤️ spaghetti

^ tess my new friends roommate,,, she is incredibly nice and easy to talk to shes like actually so nice. i think its cuz she works with disabled kids n im 😭 but anyway every time im at their house, i keep waiting for her to yell at me and hate me bc of what maddie did to me in vegas 💀

feeling immense dread today but staying positive. i have lovely friends n im trying really hard to be normal n fit in but idk if im any good at it. sabby and kimani's band had a show last night n theirmusic so pretty i cried. also ex's sister totally traumatized me bc im afraid of ppls roommates now

about myself. if that wasnt obvious

i still realize this every so often

some lately foods. life has been pretty darn good tbh. finally comfortable enough w myself and my present to not obsess ab other stuff. i got a pair of sneakers today, havent had any in years. been washing my face everyday. and i have a lowkey date tmrw. i wanna be a person. i wanna be talia

damn girl u blew up 💥

baisy

omad

cried so much today that my nose and eyes burn and my eyes are so bloodshot lol even tho its been like 4 hrs since i last cried

i dont remember what i was on or thinkin when i said smthn was coming, but literally two weeks later was the worst day of my life 😭😭😭😭

the way something did indeed come 😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔💔💔💔

having milk and cookies in bed rn.. so cozy... meeting my new therapist tmrw i am so scared. but more scared of finishing gravity falls.. what am i gonna do afterwards 😥

today..

i hope so

evening update:

ikr :3

everything ive eaten so far today

my meals 2day ^_^ and dw i will have snack b4 bed as well :3

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been listening to the twilight audiobook n love tbh i was listening to it to sleep but thats not working anymore cuz i get too interested lolz i wish edward would come rescue me and we fall in love forever <3

woog

dawgs

thinkin about making french toast before bed but maybe i should save it for tmrw 🤔

food today :3