example artists on the 3D mockup prior to the building of this pgh venue including: Ratatat, Pretty Lights, and of Montreal is SO me-coded

it is starting to feel like i am going to be dealing with this forever

insurance says its not their job to deal with the fact that the asbestos was removed improperly if they cant help us, and also i fucked up and misread one of the codes so we have less solid legal recourse (if not necessarily none) than i thought. fuck.

yeah okay so turns out they did not actually finish the job and we are almost certainly going to have another asbestos abatement done. i’m gonna lose my mind.

things you do not want to find after asbestos abatement for 200 alex

lmfao okay so the airborne asbestos tests came back negative so we went to use the living room

and we moved a piece of furniture

and immediately found a 2”x2” chunk of wall that had slid under some furniture that they failed to remove & dispose of

im going crazy

oh, and they simply missed large, obvious sections of water damaged wall that they just didn't remove and after sending photographs, immediately said they would come back tomorrow (put all the containment back up) and remove those (obviously damaged) pieces of wall as well

seems the asbestos abatement company didn't *technically* break any regulations, they only ignored a number of safety regulations that would have required for larger jobs, in ways that other companies with abatement experience said they would not have personally allowed to happen.

with the exception of literally just 2 pages i am gonna give myself more time on, i am FINALLY FUCKING DONE THE EDIT ON THE MANUSCRIPT FOR THE CROWDFUNDER. holy shit. i am free. i am pretty much fucking free.

bipolar autistic ADHD person loses all structures & physical coping mechanisms set up to enable consistent daily routines 🙃

potentially like, 3 weeks no bedroom due to asbestos abatement is going to be. very disruptive to my life lol.

the D*SA as a caucus now, but just...MC literally is not a D*SA faction lmao. anyway, this chart was like a blast from the past. M*rxist Center z''l, my woefully doomed beloved.

its so funny seeing this chart posted on main and seeing M*rxist C*nter in there like...its true some D*SA chapters were affiliates, but the MC was literally an organization *outside* of D*SA. it's probably still necessary to put it in there b/c without MC there wouldn't be M*rxist Unity Group in

my therapist said the word "yeeted" today which i think shouldnt be allowed

just realized that if oil prices stay like this through dec-jan i could actually lose a shit ton of money on the crowdfunder due to freight. huh. hope that doesn’t happen i guess.

i understand / i really do / i exhaust myself too

not even like, the life i was living or anything. just to be that kind of person again. i want it so so bad.

i’d give anything in the world to be the person i was in 2019 again

after years of self-employment, definitely having to readjust to being autistic in the workplace & to being one of only 2 women on a team of mostly men, with a man as my boss & immediate supervisor of all my work

i am truly bringing the most noxious vibes to the function

i would not take any of that work on now. i just want the life that exists after all of that work is done & i just do my full-time job and then stuff i actually want to do.

but before it get easier it's first going to get much much harder and i'm so fucking scared

i am so ready to not be obligated to do paid work that i took on when i needed that money that now is a near-meaningless drop in the bucket compared to my full-time job that i absolutely have no idea how to juggle with all the paid work i am still obligated to do

i need to be on heavier medication i don’t know how to be a person

i’ve known for a few days the crash would come but damn this one hit hard and fast and bad

need teaching job and crowdfunder manuscript edit to be done so so bad

focusing on new job is so so much easier than expected and focusing on almost anything that *isnt* new job is so so much harder than expected

i was so. so happy working my job today. i jsut want to work my job. there's asbestos. our house has asbestos

our house has fucking. asbestos. i cannot believe it. i truly cannot believe it. can it stop for even one FUCKING second

that all said: god it fucking rules so far. thank god i got this job B''H B''H B''H B''H B''H.

my job absolutely does not feel real. not in a bad way but like.

it absolutely feels more like i've joined the discord server for some random sprawling volunteer creative project than a Job lol.

probably the lack of any sort of physical location to visit makes this more true.