never that

trying to use the register at my new job reminds me of having panic attacks during timed math tests in elementary school, i’m so cooked

that alt baddie to religious psychosis pipeline is real

in a perfect world we would’ve been friends instead of hating each other over a cokehead who thinks we’re both the loves of his life :///

i didn’t think so lol but i was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt that maybe it was relevant for some reason , im switching to a female therapist either way

he also called me spoiled and manipulative because i’m the youngest child & the only girl in my family it gave jealous older brother and aside from the weird inappropriate comments about my sex life it just reminded me of being lectured by my brother

if you have nothing without a person, you had nothing with them either. love won’t fill the void. heal yourself.

started therapy today i hope it will be worth it

i needed help 6 months ago not 6 months in the future but it’s ok ur too late i just hope my death can make a statement

i wonder how many people go home and kill themselves after being denied mental health care

never sold my soul i gave ts away

contemplating suicide even when i’m not suicidal, i was never meant to live

its been a year since last may. a year of anger, resentment and heartbreak. a year since i became someone i hate.

do i sound more like her when there’s anger in my voice?

you remind me of cigarette smoke & silence

i spend all my days contemplating

i am nothing but a burden & added stress just like he said i was and he was right when he said i don’t deserve to be loved if i don’t want to be alive

everyone would be better off without me and once i’m gone they’ll understand that {if they don’t already}. in one way or another every person in my life would benefit from not having me in theirs.

i love u but i hate the person you’ve become {and i know u do too}

i idolized you.. i looked up to you.. i wanted to be just like you...

bro gives me the lore behind all of his songs & i love it

being friends with ppl who make music is cool cus u get the genius lyric annotations first hand

will you regret deleting it all when i’m dead? when you can’t look back on our messages, when all of the pictures are gone and you can no longer see my face? will you regret deleting any trace of every memory we ever made? will you forget me when all that was left of me is erased?

thought he could love the mentally ill girl turns out he was romanticizing me instead

all lust never love…

i wouldn’t even be surprised 🤣🤣

honestly just feel bad 4 her no wonder she’s fucking weird and was so comfortable sending me their sextape on valentine’s day, it’s cus her mom is a weirdo too🤡

my ex didn’t like that i did onlyfans yet left me for a girl who makes & sells content with her mother and little sister, fucking CRAZY work

his future gf better appreciate the man i create 🙏🏻