Phew that was a good cry.

Genuinely haven’t in a little while, this time I started reminiscing about childhood holidays. I miss being able to decorate a tree, the sounds, smells, smiling faces, the goofy music my dad would play… I miss just the memories of being a happy family, they seem rare now.

Fun planned :3

Make her fucking whimper? You’re a piece of shit.

I just miss having a mother I could look up to. A mom I could talk about good memories of her to my friends. Instead I feel like all the shit she’s been doing these last 7 years have been erasing anything good I remember her being.

Fuck.

Year life because I’ve been in college. And I know this.

What did she do instead of listening to me? Screamed at the dog for being a bitch and never listening. She pinched her side and yanked her down from the window.

Yes you can pull her from the window gently by her chest or collar, but if you

She kept telling the dog “Shhhhh” as if she fucking understands that??? You KNOW that she doesn’t listen to “shh” as a god damn command. Tell her “Bad.” Tell her to “Down.” From the window. It’s not fucking rocket science you dipshit.

Hell, I’ve been around her only like four years total of her 7

Definitely didn’t just excuse myself from family time to punch the fuck out of a suitcase and make my knuckles bleed because of how pissed off my mom just made me.

Her fuse is so fucking short it’s impossible to ever give suggestions for how to handle the dog not listening without her blowing up.

I feel SO bad I may or may not have dislodged her IUD… TWICE in the last month or two - If I ever meet her doc she is gonna be mad at me

I didn’t realize for a while thag the whole “Make it so she can’t walk the next day” is an actual thing until the first time 😭

She genuinely couldn’t go to the campus store after and I had to go for her sjdnnffnfnf

CHAT SHES AS FREAKY AS ME

She definitely didn’t send me a long long message about somno and what she’d want to do to me definitely not oh my god I melt

Wow… I’m kinda decent at writing horny according to this girl because she is now “Hot and throbbing” and she’s mad because I’m not there to help out hsndfnfnfnfnnfnc

WHOOPS

Time has passed anyways because they’re engaged now, but still funny

Wait but what if they WERE is the thing

Well okay but then I also had a friend that invited me to go swimming at like 10pm alone in a cliff jumping area - but I know they aren’t into me so like it’s genuinely hard to tell if it’s okay to make a move or comment without being the bad one

Sometimes I have to wonder if I have every been hit on and just never realized it…

I mean I was pretty oblivious that the cuddles and Lego time was actually a gal hitting on me until she started to kiss my shirt while cuddling LMFAO

I just had a GREAT horny dream for like the first time in an absurdly long time-

It was just a really intimate night and included a lot of fingering and clit massage and it was just really fucking nice shdnfjfffc

Cried for the first time in a WHILE last night, felt good… I miss home and am overwhelmed by assignments TwT

Pop rocks don’t feel like anything in a BJ btw I have done the research (she begged me to let her try 😭)

Heard on the tv in passing “He likes to watch his victims pass out again and again” and my horrible ass said “Me too as long as they promise to do it back to me~”

Don’t hear it anymore.
It hurts. I hurt. I’ve started to enjoy not being at home which fucking scares me, because all the animals and people I love are here. I just want her to stop being a bomb every day, and just relax for once.

Him. Yes, me saying oh shut up through the wall is directed at you and not at friends. You are insufferable. Every day you yell and scream and victimize yourself. Every day just the smallest of things sets you off and makes you a ticking time bomb.

Every day I want you two to get divorced so I

Screaming at the dog about concepts she doesn’t understand (She’s looking at you because she likes you, not because she’s rushing you and pressuring you yelling “GOGOGOGO FUCKING MOVE FASTER” like you’re telling yourself)

No my dad is not out to get you by forgetting things that you’ve never told

I do not feel mentally well

Think I’m in another rutt or something

I just want one morning where there is no screaming.

I fucking want to like pvp on sea of thieves. I fucking want to.

Instead I’m here picking at my skin anxiously, screaming swears constantly, and feeling like I’m boiling alive.

I just want to get the cool ghost skin, man.

I need to go put a bandaid on now.

I WANNA FEEL THE SLIME GOING IN I THINK IT WOULD FEEL COOL-

God I wish slimes existed irl and weren’t the dissolving kind… no reason.

I apparently bruised her boobs because of how she liked me squeezing them-

Dude it’s always when I am so deep into the sauce of a smut story or comic that someone knocks on the door or comes in fuck

Also ego boost that she says I’m the biggest she’s had :3

Guh sex is tiring I feel heavy