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I made art instead of cutting myself. Im not getting better, I just dont want to deal with hiding my scars.

I changed the layout to Leon because why tf not. Also my mommy practically called me an obese whale because "my legs got so big" like no shit im depressed and I eat and sleep all the fucking time

♡ I don't know why im on edsky anyway, it's not like I'm gonna lose weight♡

Attempt didnt work. Im still alive (unfortunately). Now ill go to the doctor to get my prescription changed

Im gonna attempt soon, I have a method. Hopefully it works🫩 Im so fucking tired of this shit bro.

I will!

I just successfully purged!! Yippeeeeeee

Ive been trying to kill myself for days now and nothing is working. I cant seem to hang myself right. I guess I dont want it bad enough.

Everyone hates me. They all think im stupid.

Im so stupid. I dont even have real problems

I want to cry im so disgusting. I should've cut deeper😭 Damn why do my arms have to be so disgustingly fat?

I did all my research on the financial end. I have to tie up loose ends and make sure that whatever money I get before will go to my family instead of sallie mae. I dont have any estate or anything in my name, so thats good. I'll make sure to transfer money over to my sister before I go.

I already read my loan clauses and my fam doesnt have to pay a dime if I die. And if theyre unable to pay for my burial/cremation, the county will take care of that. Any remaining debts i owe will not go to them. So I won't be a burden even in death.

My fam knows im suicidal, so I have to be strategic in what I do and how I do it. Unfortunately I may have to lay low with my plans and gather up my tools needed until its time. I dont have a set date, but I need to make it seem like that im okay so theyre not suspicious.

My thighs are so fat. I feel so fucking SAD

My therapist is resigning so I have to find a new one. Im very upset, but at least i was cute today

Imma stop self harming. Theres no point in doing it because it provides nothing for me anymore.

Yesss!! I found some cute little elf ear cuffs in Spencer's 😭 And I found a good perfume in 5 below!! And I got all the stuff to make my own dusting powder!

Therapy appointment got canceled but at least I got to go shopping

Broooooooo! I'll look so much prettier if I was 80lbs lighter🫩 Why do I keep eating???

I want to be able to purge.

Is being groomed online considered as traumatic or just cringe shit that I did as a teen. Because I was groomed from 14-16 and I dont think its all that traumatic 🤔 maybe im just weird.

I wanna cvt so badly rn😔

I saw someone cut to the artery and bleed out on twitter? 😭😭 lucky yayyy but I know that healing will be a BITCHHH

I got someone's progesterone instead of my Lexapro at the pharmacy 😭😭 I had to go back and everythingggg

Interesting🤔 imma see if im able to see mine

How are you able to see therapy notes?🤔

Meow meow😔😔 meow meow meow. MEOOOOWWWWWW meow meow meow meow meow💅🏾💅🏾

I need to be on here more, edtwt is just filled with interaction bait.😔