Yes, it is insanely expensive. 😭 but i do that bc its almost like a set it and forget type of deal.

I know that I've gained so much weight because of my excessive eating. I can't wait until I get back on Lexapro so I wont binge as much anymore. Hopefully the doctor ups my dosage

I promise that I wont get addicted! Its very inconvenient for me to purge anyway because I always have someone home 🤷🏾‍♀️

Changed my handle because I wanted to

Drops are good. I take my baby to the vet for Bravecto, but thays expensive as it's 100$. The one the vet has lasts for 90 days.

Honestly I forgot how stress free edsky is😭

I successfully purged again today. I'm not gonna get addicted I swear.

Kindle

I made art instead of cutting myself. Im not getting better, I just dont want to deal with hiding my scars.

I changed the layout to Leon because why tf not. Also my mommy practically called me an obese whale because "my legs got so big" like no shit im depressed and I eat and sleep all the fucking time

♡ I don't know why im on edsky anyway, it's not like I'm gonna lose weight♡

Attempt didnt work. Im still alive (unfortunately). Now ill go to the doctor to get my prescription changed

Im gonna attempt soon, I have a method. Hopefully it works🫩 Im so fucking tired of this shit bro.

I will!

I just successfully purged!! Yippeeeeeee

Ive been trying to kill myself for days now and nothing is working. I cant seem to hang myself right. I guess I dont want it bad enough.

Everyone hates me. They all think im stupid.

Im so stupid. I dont even have real problems

I want to cry im so disgusting. I should've cut deeper😭 Damn why do my arms have to be so disgustingly fat?

I did all my research on the financial end. I have to tie up loose ends and make sure that whatever money I get before will go to my family instead of sallie mae. I dont have any estate or anything in my name, so thats good. I'll make sure to transfer money over to my sister before I go.

I already read my loan clauses and my fam doesnt have to pay a dime if I die. And if theyre unable to pay for my burial/cremation, the county will take care of that. Any remaining debts i owe will not go to them. So I won't be a burden even in death.

My fam knows im suicidal, so I have to be strategic in what I do and how I do it. Unfortunately I may have to lay low with my plans and gather up my tools needed until its time. I dont have a set date, but I need to make it seem like that im okay so theyre not suspicious.

My thighs are so fat. I feel so fucking SAD

My therapist is resigning so I have to find a new one. Im very upset, but at least i was cute today

Imma stop self harming. Theres no point in doing it because it provides nothing for me anymore.

Yesss!! I found some cute little elf ear cuffs in Spencer's 😭 And I found a good perfume in 5 below!! And I got all the stuff to make my own dusting powder!

Therapy appointment got canceled but at least I got to go shopping

Broooooooo! I'll look so much prettier if I was 80lbs lighter🫩 Why do I keep eating???

I want to be able to purge.

Is being groomed online considered as traumatic or just cringe shit that I did as a teen. Because I was groomed from 14-16 and I dont think its all that traumatic 🤔 maybe im just weird.