Jotaro saying good grief

avis: 0
margs: 1

and that’s all i have to say on the matter

he also bought 3 bottles of tequila for the margs???????? he’s trying to make it so we don’t show up tomorrow LOL

T’was the night before the last open house and all was well… UNTIL THE RECRUITMENT TEAM HOOTIN- NANNY!!

we have our last weekend open house tomorrow where we have to work and i’m laughing at what my coworker put in the calendar invite description for our bonfire tonight

also he put the timeframe from right after work to midnight ????? LMFAO i love my coworkers so much

my coworkers were using ocd as an adjective and i was brave and spoke up about how i didn’t like it !!!!!!!

Kudos Notice Hey, Avis You deserve a shout out for [checked] going above and beyond [checked] bringing positive energy Supporting others Bringing fresh ideas [checked] making the team better Being a rock-solid support [checked] making work more fun Adding inspiration [checked] making things run smoothly Grateful for you!

omg i got to work and this was on my desk AWWW what a nice start to the day :’)

wait literally same 😭

myself bc i know all of this is not my fault and i’ve come realize that after all this time i think i’m just frustrated at the situation and scared it’ll get worse which is a feeling i’ve felt many times before so idk anyway that’s enough thanks for listening bye

BUT WAH now i’m thinking of celeste tho and how part of the message it sends is that the “bad” parts are part of u too and u wouldn’t be you without them and u should work together and stuff so now i’m emotional about that bc like ya i agree and like i’m not necessarily upset at

ANYWAY ocd fucking sucks and i’ve been dealing with this shit for 20 years and i’m over it

my therapist was giving me homework for ocd stuff and was like “do u think u can do that” and all i said was “uhhhhhh” like i couldn’t make myself say yes and i started tearing up which hasn’t happened before wah

and yes i know u can’t “fail” therapy, i know things take time and that healing isn’t linear, i am aware

but i’m still feeling frustrated and angry and a lil scared and i think that’s okay too maybe i don’t know blah

i feel like i’m failing therapy in terms of ocd stuff and i’m just really frustrated

anyway i don’t really care but i’m like damn i’ve blown my cover 😭 i was incognito all weekend i was like a lil spy doing somersaults from hallway to hallway

i was trying to avoid this guy i know at the convention all weekend bc he makes me uncomfy

i saw him so many times and i’d just do a 180 and walk away LOL

anyway i posted a picture on my insta story and now he’s in my dms being like “why didn’t u tell me u were here”

pls leave me alone !!

i’ve decided i don’t like my coworkers boyfriend which is unfortunate but he just isn’t someone i would hang around if i had the choice

text: you’re the realest Minnesota Nice i’ve known

nicest thing anyone has ever said to me

screenshot of email that says “that being said, i’d encourage you (if possible) to take stuff home to work remotely if required on Monday and check your email from home if the snowfall nears the possible 20 inches Saturday into Sunday.”

20 inches?????????????

my health anxiety is acting up and i think it’s from thinking about my mom’s surgery or something idk blah

oh ashley i’m SO sorry pls know u can always talk to me if that would help u, i am always here and i’m sending u sm love and strength

<3 !!!!!!!!!!

i cannot WAIT to explore more parks n stuff around me this summer and have pokemon go walks again and to hear happy birds and i’m even excited for mosquitoes

i keep looking at my calendar to remind myself that it’s almost march tho and that helps hehe soooooo clooooose ugh I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE GRASS AND THE SUN

i think the short lil reprieve from winter just for it to be cold and snowy again fucked with my head and seasonal depression why am i feeling like winter is just starting again

i have been hit by the same beast rori

my mom is a godsend tho she’s so patient with me 😭

i crack myself up ha aha aha ahahaha ahaha ha

me: I need new glasses bc my eyes are worse and things are blurry, do you think it’s because i have brain cancer? me: when i was worried about my head hurting (which it still does sometimes) the doctor kept asking if i had vision changed) me: and now i am and it’s my right eye and that’s where the pain in my head is, but my right eye has always been worse,,, anyway the logical conclusion is that i have brain cancer” mom: the logical conclusion according to mom is that you just need new glasses and that you don’t have brain cancer me: LOL

typical convo with my mom on any given tuesday

my dad never fails to cry every time i leave to go back home

like every single time

he cried today and i’ll literally be back in two weeks

aw :’)

sometimes i think that if i wasn’t so hyper aware of social dynamics i would be less of an anxious person