(he's all the things I'm not; brave, confrontational, badass, relatively steadfast, takes no bullshit, staunchly anti authoritarian. That's why I strive to embody him when I can)

Me, to my previous therapist: amber amber Donovan isn't just my gender envy or who I strive to be in the world, I think he's also,ultimately, my grief personified

I am chewing on GLASS

I've had this original character, Donovan, for mmmmmm... 12 years now? It took me until today to really fully grasp and comprehend that his... like, core thesis statement as a character is "my grief is all consuming and I will let that grief consume me because it's all I have"

I wrote the date of my backstory redaction down because I don't know how long it's going to take before I can reveal any of it, and I'm so so interested to see how long it takes hehe

Oh man delicious

He has no control over what will kill his family members, or when they will die, and so when the thought gets to be too much, he regains control by drinking himself silly

I'm realizing Donovan's issue is a lack of control. If he doesn't feel in control he crashes out to various degrees.

He has no control over having a ghost attached to him currently, so he's kinda mean to Luc the ghost. (There are other reasons he's... Short with Luc too.)

By extension, and he doesn't realize he's doing this of course, but he's preemptively grieving the loss of his mom and brother even though they're right in front of him.

It's been 6 in game years since he lost his father and yet the fear of losing his brother or mother still hangs over his head like a scythe, threatening to gut him and leave him useless with grief again, as it did before. He's still grieving his father. He'll never not grieve his father

Donovan becoming unmoored after the disappearance/passing of his father and therefore pushing himself further and further to protect his brother because he can't fathom losing his brother (or mother). Losing another family member is an unbearable thought to him

Healthy familial dynamics? Never heard of her looooool

Dead family is WAY easier to write than healthy familial dynamics. Which is what Donovan has in this campaign. For once.

This is the first time I've written Donovan, my OC, with living family and I am at such a loss of how his dynamic is with them. On account of them never having been alive until this campaign lol

I mean there's a reason I'm obsessed with my Daggerheart game. It's AMAZING inspiration for arts and crafts

Idk if this is trauma but my intensity has driven people away before and it will drive people away again.

I love my Daggerheart game so much. I love my GM and I love my fellow players, and I love the story. I can't help that I'm intense about it but I'm so so scared that my passion and love for this game will end up driving the others away

I popped back on blue sky bc an artist from my Tumblr posted porn ngl 🤷‍♂️

A year later and he hasn't relapsed with another urinary blockage. I love him so much.

He's adorable for a guy whose run me into severe debt with emergency vet costs

I'm sorry. This was a cursed thing to say...

uwu-igi

I DIDNT GET TO WATCH SEASON 5 AS A KID

Losing my shit over seeing Donna Troy, Jericho and CHESHIRE at the end of Homecoming Pt 2 from Teen Titans season 5

Just kidding they were all rescued, based as hell

drive your cybertruck to the titanic it will work cybertruck is also a boat women will like you maybe there's gold great for engagement you can use ai

YOURE TELLING ME KIDS SHOW TEEN TITANS KILL ALL THE FUCKIN DOOM PATROL.

It's their job but in MY silly animated teen titans show????? From the early 2000s???? Go off then 💅

Yeah of course I'm comparing animated Doom Patrol to the Doom Patrol show

I never got to watch the 5th season as a kid. I love you animated Negative Man you'll always be real to me

I didn't realize that Teen Titans (2003) season 5 had the fuckin Doom Patrol in it omg