Will it be releasing with The Steam BackBlow accompaniment

I hate that most of my emails are bullshit like this lol

my party trick is having ice cold extremities at room temperature

I hate being spread thin.

brain why do u drag me into a million different directions w/ heart strings attached & settle on /work more/ as if it's a financing option for social investment

<3 working on it and chipping away

until then, I have to suffer a lifestyle in discomfort. it causes a lot of anxiety, & is being treated like pure psychological issue, and not respective to the physical suffering

all this shit started w/ 4 episodes of cachexia, & being accused of anorexia by multiple nurses instead of assisted

It's frustrating knowing /exactly/ what I have going on medically, due to a processes of elimination in screening out what it isn't;

but to get treatment, I need diagnostics, from a specialist, I need a referral to.
its a simple, cheap test, and the cure is quadruple antibiotic therapy

There should be a question on the screen like,
A surveyor wants to know the height of a skyscraper. He places his inclinometer on a tripod 1m1m from the ground. At a distance of 50m50m from the skyscraper, he records an angle of elevation of 82∘82∘.

What is the height of the skyscraper?

Woke earlier today, got chores done and took a walk before I normally even get out of bed & it feels good

Small joys from the local boutique, like Etsy irl out there

I wanna have people in my life; but why does keeping up with me have to be so dreary.

srry about all the venting lately

it's this inundation of being alone in a kafkaesque barely navigable situation/

dependent to my sublet owners @ a complete lack of communication or guidelines, who refused to itemize my expenses, and forced me onto a trust vouch; Usurping me

life keeps happening late, I've lost a lot, not only my material life, but much of my social life, and I can't engage with even hobbies

I don't know how to get legal help, social assistance, rapid rehousing, in the next two months. I can make phone calls, in hope that I find recourse guidance.

when my medicaid packet comes in, I'm calling 211 again, collecting new resources, acquiring a case manager, calling my doctor for new resources.

my latent integration to AZ residency has gatekept me from getting further assistance on a local level, and I'm still not even there..

its difficult to maintain relationships with close ones when the contrite of yearning & the inability to convene bring emotional tensions.

I'm working really hard. I wish I could have a visitor. I can visit but there's a chance I won't have a place to return.

I'm tired of living like this

I'm the only person not on psychoactive substances.

its not entirely the substance that causes the issues, but I think that it plays a role in the behavior, or lack of care/want/need to maintain the environment, and the reactionary contempt for requesting efforts

I wish I didn't care, because it seems to be a problem to the others that I do. I'm just a nagging mom

I don't know what to do with my time.

I'm either managing others lack of efforts, to feel comfortable. or I must work to make any money, apply for jobs/work search refine, & live in degrade

the apartment smells so bad I've been getting sick when I leave my bedroom.

no one else seems to care, and I can't keep up with this

It could be both.
anxiety can lead into panic & there's overlap

I use the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique a lot for panic when I notice its building

Mentally noting in your physical environment
5 things you can see
4 you can touch
3 you can hear
2 you can smell
1 you can taste

prolific is nice for some money, but it's 100, 5-10 minute surveys, avg $0.75 per completion to earn $100
that take 3 days on average to get through

and that helps with groceries, and touch on needs like toiletries.

but, it does not crawl me out of the hole of impending homelessness or buy meds

I need more paid platforms like Prolific, while I'm out of a job, and I need stuff to do that isn't AI training because I find it detestable

the AI training today is gibberish generated slop, so I'm not working it, as desperately as I need to make money, because a stroke for $10/hr is not worth it

all my links in one place
I need as much help as I can get

I'm rehousing & @ risk of homelessness

medicaid recently approved, retro to feb, going to attempt rebate, much of prior aid gone to medical apts & meds

ko-fi.com/gooptimes/go...
cash.app/$Goopulus
venmo.com/u/gooptastic
paypal.me/frdjz

Hey man, we cool? I just noticed that when I look at you the reticle turns red.

its funny plant day

I've had 4 job offers retracted this year, contingent on a credit screening

I've never even opened a line of credit, but my credit is bad to overdue medical debt & parental fraud

nonetheless, I guess my credit score is my worthiness to be employed even after being deemed qualified 🤷

you hit the college wall-clip and skipped the segment

it's dangerous!!! and there are movement techs 😱

and im going through hell to retrieve it while dancing around the fact that I'm an unapproved sublet

my roommates have made it so hard to get mail ffs

wouldn't it be nice if I had paperwork that informed me of anything

and not hit with this, drag ass, beat around the bush, "thought you would have known" stuff.

I've had medication sitting in the parcel locker since Wednesday