My friend Alan is in dire need of help. I know some of you probably won't be able to help but I figured I'd at least spread the message. This is also the same guy that made my avatar I currently use, so if you can help, please do

Since it's after midnight, it's officially my 30th birthday...it's going to be a miserable, lonely birthday

Welp, Happy 3 year anniversary to the worst moment of my entire life.

I don't belong here. I don't belong anywhere. Yet I am forced to continue down this lonesome, miserable path, bringing misfortune to those that I care about and joy to those who benefit from my suffering

To all those who I have wronged before, I give my sincerest apologies, for what I have done so far, and for what will likely happen again. I am a plague upon this world, doing his best to try to make things better, but ultimately only making things worse.

But even then, the universe would have dictated that my life may not go in any truly positive direction. Only neutral at best, and plummeting towards the inner circles of hell's domain by the ultimate end

Even at times where I could have changed my fate even slightly, I made the worst of choices, and only through hindsight that is clear as day will I find the outcome that could have made things better for me had I thought about it for long enough, if at all.

There is no changing of my fate. My destiny was set long before I was born, and it will continue that way until my inevitable demise.

I cannot find happiness without bringing any kind of suffering to others, and that happiness is but fleeting, for it is not my place in the world to find happiness. I am meant for others to use me as they see fit, always to my own detriment, and never in a way that may benefit myself

Where once I saw light in even the darkest of times, now all I see is shadows, even the brightest of days. I am nothing more than a tool, to be used by others for their own happiness at the cost of my misery.

When I'm alone, even on a good day, I'm reminded by my brain that my life is - and will forever be - a failure, and that the only way I will find anything even close to true happiness is through a facade that will only happen if I achieve the impossible

The universe has dictated that all my happiness, all my joy, all sense that things will go well is but temporary, and that I am destined for nothing but pain.

Do they even care? Do they even know what today is? I don't know, but my mind tells me the answer to both is no, and that I should have known better than to think anything would ever change in my life.

Every day since the last just brings more pain, yet all I can do to try and get past it is to just accept that my fate is the way that it is.

3 years...3 years of pain and misery. 3 years of feeling like I'm the worst person in the universe and that nothing will ever change for me. That the universe wants me to be miserable for all of eternity and that I will never amount to anything in my life.

Other people: You know, the way you look at your life seems very toxic to yourself
Me: Not really. By resigning myself to my fate in one way, I know there's nothing I can do to change it, so there's no point focusing on it, so I use that mental energy in other areas that are more productive in life.

At the very least, all the pain and suffering I'm going through will be enough to prepare me in case I'm sent to hell after I'm gone. After all, I'm already living through it

Sometimes it really feels like that. Speaking from experience here (especially given what's going on tomorrow)

Honestly? Same =_='

i hate today

I'm going to be in a metaphorical hell on Friday...debating whether or not to just hole myself up and stay offline all day Friday because of it

Glad to see you come to this realization about yourself, girl

The Washington Commanders players, coaches, front office people, owners, and fans (myself included) after tonight's game:

Lynch was easily one of the most creative minds in Hollywood's extensive history. He will absolutely be missed

...you know what? If the Commanders win next weekend against the Lions, I kinda want to see us play the Eagles in the NFC Championship game. On one hand, yes it would mean risking them going to the Super Bowl. But on the other hand, I want to see the reaction of Cowboys fans if that happens

COMMANDERS DID IT!!! OUR FIRST DIVISIONAL ROUND GAME IN 19 YEARS!!! I'VE NEVER LOVED THIS TEAM MORE THAN I DO NOW!!!

Assemble a Pokémon team using only letters from your username:

W - Wooloo
O - Ogerpon
L - Latias
F - Flygon
D - Dugtrio
B - Banette

Not trying to create a viable team, just some of my favorites for each letter

No, if you're an organ donor, you GIVE guts. The doctors are the one that take guts...and hearts...and spleens too

COMMANDERS ARE PLAYOFF BOUND! LET'S FREAKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wasn't alive during Carter's presidency, but I've seen the work this man did, both records of what he did in office AND the volunteer work he did after he left office. He was a good president, and an even better man. May he Rest in Peace.