I'm scared

4 years break from this game and we just got back after 8 months of no speedrunning/streaming after my 2nd child! This progress feels good esp knowing that with all the sleep deprivation and exhaustion, we can still do very well here! (Also shows that most of no pb/brainfog was depression related)

wishing you luck and things to get better soon <3 !!

that's some really good advice there.

Good life advice.

man rolling rock up hill how it started how its going

Gettint a little cv4 in here and there and big relief, we can still do all the big strats. The rust is real but the muscle mem is still there!

I started derusting Valis IV for whenever I can manage to sr again (who knows when that is). Crazy to think that with my big girl, she was only 5 months when I derusted Belmont's Revenge to run for SGDQ. Still dunno how I managed to do that. It's good memories <3

Despite being on a big hiatus it feels so good to see so much activity on CV4 lately (esp the Joe WR hehe). Game's not dead!

Sending you much love and good vibes hoping this will finally get better for you. I hate how health can be such a constant issue and taking so much from us sometimes. I recently lost 50?% of my hearing on the left, all of the sudden, no real explanation. SO it's like cool, another thing body, thanks

Ach danke. Ist ein bisschen doof in der Warteschleife, nicht zu wissen, wie viel wirklich zurückkommt, aber kann mich sicher dran gewöhnen. Ist etwas "disconnected", weil es so unterschiedlich ist rechts und links, aber es geht und meistens fällts nicht auf

I partially lost hearing on the left 2 weeks ago. After testing doc said it isn't sudden sensorineural hearing loss, but an inner ear issue and all I can do now is wait and be patient. (no meds while breastfeeding, also recent science shows no evidence that cortisone really helps). Slow progress tho

I thought it would be much easier 2nd time. In some ways it is, but I guess I learned how much I appreciated my personal freedom again between 1 and 2 :D

Mir auch :'D

5 months since last stream. Nights been rough, best I get 5.5h with a lot of interrupted sleep. Aside from my toddler, I barely had any conversations that aren't baby language. I love this, but I also miss getting good sleep, enjoying more coffee, living after my own schedule, music, games. :'D

ahhhhh tyty! There's few good ones on there but this one's a 10/10!

aww damn this one I cant find on there anymore

I've been putting some prac (for funsies) into the advanced 4-4 zip which became more viable thanks do DCRippa's science on it. I get it maybe a 15% of times now which is barely anything.
It's crazy hard but feels very good! t.co/XIXYzwJq42

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The thing that really motivates me with walking (again hopefully soon) over the gym is how much nature does for my mental health while walking takes care of the physical part rather. Nature's beauty helps me stay grounded and find peace

Stardew Fall music never fails to calm me down. I can't wait for summer to be over so I can get comfy on my coffee farm again.
(Yes, I always have a playthrough ready at fall so I can enjoy fall while it's fall IRL. Did I mention fall is my fav season??? :D)

I'm still trying to figure that out for myself. But big part so far and what I feel very deep inside is def making a difference for others, trying to be good influence and support for my kids, friends and whoever needs someone to help or guide them.

It's already been 4 months since my last CV4 run. Craaaazy! I miss whipman!

Das war auch ein Weg, ich hatte auch an den HDMI mod gedacht, aber letztlich hab ich mir das alles angehört und zum modder gesagt, mach mal wie du denkst. :D Bin gespannt!

My modded N64 arrived! =) Time for some Castlevania 64 lol (well in a few months maybe if little monkey lets me but hey)

WB! :)