nuking the content on this account since i cant privet it and i don't want my fetish content in the eyes of the public anymore. i also lowkey don't post here and only post on twitter and toyhouse.

I also lowkey don't wanna fall asleep with a boner that's whispering in my ear

Sorry but not sorry to vent on here. It's my account so like I don't care. I just feel better typing because I can get my brain straightend out and pin point my issues and a solution.

End of the day lowkey I think I just need a good vibrator, a deep voiced cowboy x listener, time to my self, and a lot of time to heal from my shit.

I had to deal with being groomed and doing NSFW rps to keep a 23 year old happy. I had to post porn in a sever that was not suppose to be NSFW because that was the only way I could get any sort of compliment or attention for my art. I felt the need to jerk it and yap about it bc every one else did.

Every time I get a boner I kinda just think about that. I think I know my issue though. It's because of how many times I use do NSFW things for people just to get their attention. But now that im not doing it for other people's satisfaction, just my own it feels odd.

im gonna yap here now. but like i think it would have a feederism option but wouldn't be the main idea of the dating sim obviously.

sighs i just need to fatten up my own characters sometimes yk. its kinda a crazy idea ik

its really tempting to do this but i think it would be a project i never finish. plus i don't even know where to start with it.

i think u already have my cash app still so just send over the money and ill dm you the character because YIPPEEE they'll be all yours

do u want them bro

I SHOULD NOT HAVE A BONER WHEN I HAVE THE FLU

im going to chuck a brick at you

i do too bro i do too

I tell me self I want sexual attention but once I get attention I get aggressive and violent towards said person. And when I'm ignored and avoided I feel sad because I feel alone and like I'm just suppose to get over this my self despite not knowing how to.

This normally happenes before I start my period so womp womp to me ig.

Any hoo I know where this mindset comes from I know why it exists and what causes it to get bad like it is today.

Only issue is I don't know how to deal with it when I'm in this mood.

Okay so I realized I'm in the same mind set I had a year ago now. A horrible mind set to be in because it's trying to convince me everyone I'm pals with only want to be my pals for nsfw content. Which I know isn't true but my brain is trying to convince it'd self of that.