*more of her pre-voidsent form, i guess
i need to design a proper voidsenty one aside from their fused enshroud version.

realized i never posted these old shots with Shura and Lilith (his voidsent aka his shard from 13th) but i need to qrp this on main so you can have it now, i guess
(they have a super toxic, weird and lowkey cnc love triangle with Theo....)

sorry i must annoy you with my comms again. would prefer to do it now and start working on them as soon as possible, rather than taking more work around bday (although i know i'll spend it working, as always..).

aside from sketch comms im currently willing to take one or two more slots of these:

hopefully kitty would be willing to share so this can become a puppy bed sometime next year too???? (we're dying to adopt a Pom, but financial + residency situation is too unstable rn)

finally got a sofa-bed, a.k.a guest bed thanks to my recent comms and amzn's discounts. ofc it immediately became a cat bed (room is a mess, still need more storage😔)

lowkey hoping to get some plushies from my bday comm exchange so i can make it more cozy.. and some light throws for summer maybe..

hey folks! my bday is in a month🌷🎉

but im burned out and don't know how to treat myself (nor have the ability rn)
so, it's time to make my annual bday comm exchange from our patreon server public!

everything is on the pic, but please read the thread for links and more details⬇️

man, i love lineart..............

im lucky to have 3 out of 6 members of that family chat already supporting me. but its the older folks who need to know. older, and very "traditionally" built folks. but i hope the other three will support me in this :')))
anyways, its still a month away
ty!!!!! 💞

this is going to be fuuuuun haha.. ha :')))

(i have a month to prep)

her greed finally made her smarter..

man...
fuck portuguese, i really need to start practicing my french again. my BIL is so cool and i can't even have a small talk with him. samd 😔
need to remember five yrs of school in a couple months for their vacation in July-August...

i hate my patrons for enabling this random hyperfixation...........................................................

i hate my patrons for enabling this random hyperfixation...........................................................

my eldest niece and i message each other exclusively in english because of the language barrier 🙈
i actively raised this girl for the first ~5 years of her life until she moved countries to her mom and now we cant even understand each other 😭ffs
my stupid brain cant handle so many languages at once😔

having a multilingual, very internationally-spread family is nice and fun until they message you "hey, your BIL and nephew are in town, they'll stop by tomorrow" and now you have one night to completely rewire your brain from portuguese to french 🤪

comm related spoiler from patreon server, but i'm probably going to make my annual bday exchange public this year!

because gods know i need some dopamine (ADs are not handling it alone anymore) and gifts, even if earned, are the best at giving it (plus it's *the* cheapest i ever offer comms for)

our rent deadline is tomorrow but patreon is taking its sweet time with my payout (which is all reserved exclusively for rent🥲) due to holidays
so
i would REALLY appreciate filling these slots asap so i don't have to make another shameful kofi goal for rent 😖

little miss is running very low on food (totally out of kibble)
and we're currently rationing ours, but i'd rather starve myself than risk her diet/nutrition
so,
throne.com/hungrygh69st/collections/lowkey-emergency-wishlist

It wouldn't hurt to try, right?
vote for your fav here - forms.gle/tfVyVQhWJGASQFhCA
poll will be up for 24hrs (i also provided more details in the form)

feel free to vote even if you can't help with funding💞

#ghostiesartfund - in case this thing miraculously becomes successful and regular

this is still a very rough WIP, i just wanted to see if it would look good as a small animated loop,,,,,

if i ever start streaming this will be my only camera angle

the first thing hubby and i see every day when we wake up:

also all the validation from my therapist already kinda inspired me to stop giving fucks about others' discomfort from MY fucking self-care (esp family) and finally look into transitioning/if i can do it here with my immigrant lack of rights.
now the only issue is, once again, money. but its a start

started bonding with my sis as a result tho. huh.

second therapy session in my life and yeah. ugly crying for 15 minutes from just one phrase said by your therapist is absolutely normal. and life changing. wow. the fuck.

she showed you her spotty toe beans, help her earn her rent

love how both my psych, my therapist AND hubby's therapist (he had to mention this to explain our relationship) all were absolutely shocked by this. very validating. and now i can understand literally every trauma/negative situation/trigger in my life. really every single one (except for SA maybe)

yeah no, that's absolutely not surprising that i grew up to feel personal responsibility for literally everything happening in the world every fucking second. every crime, every war, every death, every injustice ever. thanks mom!
ofc too many people in my life used this and my empathy and abused me

what a crazy move to basically tell your child that their smallest mistake can lead to their parent's DEATH. instead of comforting me she literally implied that not only i have to experience unfamiliar negative emotions all alone but also take full responsibility for my parents. AT FIVE FUCKING YRS