got from Bad to worse

honestly i should just...not leave my flat anymore. Start working as much as i can from home.
and spare people my presence.

i planned conventions this year. certainly wasn't in the right mind when i did that...

Ganz ehrlich
Die ganze Welt kann mich mal kreuzweise
Ich will nicht mehr und ich kann nicht mehr
lasst mich einfach alle in ruhe

woke up and thought that it's really not good that my energy only lasts for two days of work

then i realized it is in fact only tuesday and not wednesday

Jack hat ne Gehaltserhöhung bekommen.
Kann mich echt nicht beklagen...

🫂

me jumping between those divisionals and the New filings

colleague: hey, are you busy?
me: _yes_
colleague: well in that case just answer me later

....and continues to write questions upon questions

sorry but it kinda makes me mad. i wouldnt be busy if you did the New applications like i asked

i was supposed to be on file duty. my colleague offered me to leave on time. everything went out of the Window now. the third day in a row with a massive workload and tons of overtime. i wanna cry

i take it all back

one douchebag Client has sent 24 Design divisionals yesterday afternoon.
because the lawyer Responsible thinks he is Something very special we have to do them in 24 hours

and because we still have people off "sick" i have to manage all of those by myself. today.

i mean my head is pretty much dead but hey, only nine more hours of work

...okay 8,5. 30 minutes of break

I still need daily painkillers though because of the infernal noise here

still not the Biggest Fan of home office. but i think i should do it now and then. sleeping a bit longer, not having breakfast in a rush and just...not having to Mask all the time is really...relaxing

will be in home office the rest of the week.
i cannot stand any sounds or smells or the like at the moment (though so far i have been Holding back the tears that come with being overwhelmed, tiny bit proud)

but yeah a full office with others and the Subway are not helping

Weil ich post-op ohne die arme irgendwie zu belasten nicht in mein Hochbett gekommen bin. bzw. wieder raus. Und Bett machen da oben ist auch schwer.
Auf dem Boden (mit Matratze natürlich) war einfacherer und sicherer

after five weeks of sleeping on the floor i have returned to my bed.
is it weird to miss the floor

Also guess who has an appointment at the hairdresser's tomorrow but is clueless as what to do with their hair
yup
me
(help)

certainly didn't feel like a short week. each day either overtime or leaving on time but having an appointment afterwards.

looking forward to a bit of sewing and reading on the weekend

i always take recommendations for my next Amazon order ♡

i have a couple of books i always wanted to re-read if i had the chance

total waiting time of 40 minutes 🥲
and now Subway problems so it's taking ages

my appointment was 30 minutes ago
still waiting
the two people who have appointments after me have already arrived.
Such a wasted afternoon

sadly no interesting books today at the bookstore

what is the hardest at the moment is getting up in the morning, drenched in cold sweat and freezing

i know my surgery was not a necessary one. but so is my colleague's 🤔
it's both about comfort in the end.
gotta love our German system

trying to fall asleep and thinking

a colleague will have a small surgery on one foot. she will get one of those special shoes and a sick note for two weeks.

i had surgery, got cut open and they told me i could go work the day after. (i could not. used my vacation days)

Overall i think i used the weekend well (well maybe not saturday)
but especially today...chores, cosplay work, revising Japanese and bit of careful sports (because still healing)

without my sleep meds i just...barely sleep at all and i don't know why.
Takes me literal hours to fall asleep and now it's shortly past 3am and guess wgo is frikkin awake 😭

one month Update

I think the first stitches are dissolving/coming out

how exciting is that??

don't ask me how but after an afternoon of researching a lot i kind of impulse bought a new sewing machine which as luck would have it offered uber delivery in 90 minutes

long story short i have a new sewing machine and can sew the next two days to my heart's content

wanna guess who just got their sewing machine out only to find it broken

laundry: done
groceries: check

neighbour is making soup today so i dont have to Cook.
Quick rest and then hopefully enough energy to work on cosplay for once

okay
get up, jack
do your laundry and get groceries. bit of cleaning and you are done
bed is tempting but you can resist it